You and your haunting voice and endlessly deep lyrics first came in to my life at the tender age of 9. I was sitting in a truck between my dad and his buddy Dennis in the front seat, and onbthe radio came "Zombie" it was the first song I remember hearing that my parents hadn't specifically chosen for me.

Not long later, I received my first Cassette ( Read more... )

I dreamed of you again last night.
Your mom was being awful to you, you were sick (or at least had told her you were), and she wasnt allowing visitors.

...we were at a beach with a bunch of people, including a bunch of kids. I think at one point in the dream - we were kids too.

One of the boys wanted a sandwich, with his bread toasted, but for the ( Read more... )

Feeling so damn negative tonight. No where else safe to vent. Suck a fucking waste of space, and life. *Sigh* thats all.

kyou no ureshikatta kao kyou no kanashikatta kao ( Read more... )

I wish I could control all these thoughts - catch them as they swirl out of control ( Read more... )

Interview Day check list:

PMS, check.
Husband being a jerk, check.
Fight with husband, check.
hour of sobbing, check.
panic attack, check

can't stop crying and I've got an interview in 2 and a half hours....I've never needed a friend like I do now.

well, atleast my eyes will be really blue when I go in, if I make it alive.

I guess that's what I ( Read more... )

So even 600 miles away from you, I still have bad dreams about you. what's the matter with me? I was doing so good too, I only thought of you once in passing yesterday...ugh *headdesk*

I didn't realize it was possible to be haunted by a living person; how cruel.

On a sidenote, I have an interview on Monday at 2 O'clock pm. The job is work from ( Read more... )

so, here I sit, back in Minnesota and I can't help but feel melancholy about it all.
16 years ago I met the most amazing woman in the world.
2 years ago I moved to her home state to be closer to her...
5 months ago I lost her friendship and the opportunity to be anything else....
40 days ago I decided to leave and come home, because she was all I ( Read more... )

I stand atop a dangerously high precipice, and I fear I may not be able to take any motion besides the forward step over the edge ( Read more... )

1, anybody that is pissy and has a phone will call in to bitch about something - even if they don't have an account with your company. this is a funny kead in to 2. I'm getting paid 9.50 to talk about bills and be a therapist.  which is an awkward lead in to number 3...that I REALLY need to get back in contact with a therapist.   also in addendum ( Read more... )