When you realize that your long distance boyfriend distracts you from remembering that you're raising a family alone .

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The dynamics of our interations inevitably depend on means of communucation. How to interrpret each other in person, is almost as challenging as when online . except for say, i get read his reactions to others by physical presence and observation. Giving me insight on how he reads others, and deals with social stress.

This orchard in which I've toiled, year after year what little fruit grew spoiled, its had sunshine, earth and water. I have no where to go and no where to eat, this orchard was handed down to me, I've heard it was once satisfactory, but I was born on these plains, into wedlock and chains, every heir must inherit, the burden of this barren mountain ( Read more... )

Maybe I am a weirdo

Singularity is not loneliness .her independence, his company. Light up the fire posts, on all corners of your body. Be it, the wanderers find warmth. Hallow eyes in the flicker caught between curiousity, and desire. Reach for his third eye, spitting patterns in the sky. They spill out through motion, round and round the flames. Her lips climbing in ( Read more... )

When you're  still married, and it's your anniversary,  and you feel to awkurd to say anything,  because you just filed for divorce  a week ago.

This is the games at their worst. Meadow  and I are moving out today, and we're  all feeling  weird and sad. I snuggled with kyler this morning, and he held me for a few minutes.  It was awkurd  and it hurt. I kissed him and he fell asleep.  Our love is changing, and we  are  Changing.  This chapter in our lives where we were living together ( Read more... )

If I've  never truly been  heart broken,  yesterday  when I told kyler that I might be  pregnant. ...he saud he wanted to die.  Because  callie makes him happy, and she would leave him. Why  is my life so fucked up. Why did I ha b e to share a wedding  and a birth with this heartless  man whom I still, against  my better judgment,  sleep  with ( Read more... )

I am so, so sad. Meadows heart is heavy, we try to do our best, but were heart broken to not have our kyler, and he is too busy to hear abput it. I have never been so lonely bevause i see the lonliness in my child. I song to her, hug her, take her anywhere she wants to go, but we cant mask the pain with anything.

I am being careless and looking over mistakes for the sake of company....strange what rejection and lonliness can do to a person.