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Im getting really feed up with kylers wishy washy one mindset attitude. Im fucking crazy for trying to work with him on a situation where were just partners. He doesnt hold up his end ever. And complains he doesnt want to live with me, does he not know that it would be a lot easier to live off his child support and quit my job and stay home with ( Read more... ) -
days are few
Im ingesting your anger, it's undertow and obvious. Im knotted up, and looking down. I keep thinking of our numbered days. You excuse your own feelings for a fact. We are not together. As I seek a new found friendship, out of disraught shadows of a relationship, parenthood, marriage and love. Lamenting, may I hang out on some dangerously bended ( Read more... ) -
dc sleeps alone tonight
October seems to be a significant relationship changer for me, that's what diaries are for ( Read more... ) -
from a mouth
I would first like to talk about what meadow is doing. First of all, she is extremely independent at home and clingy at other peoples houses. She loves her different play areas and feels comfortable to do as she pleases and hardly ever does things to get in trouble or get attention. She is very curious and obviously doesn't always see a need for ( Read more... ) -
Gold in heaven
As I see my life a year ago all I can remember is the stress and the joy of meadows babyhood. My precious doll has become an empathetic, humble, teachable and hilarious little toddler. Today she said OKAY!:) in agreeance
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Soldier
I've been on a foolish hunt for the gold at the end of an rainbow. Well that gold is shining but it's running sweetheart. you can get to the door, but if a woman answers and looks at you like, what the hell why are you at my house asking for a boy. And your babies in the car sleeping, and you should be at home cooking but you are out running as ( Read more... ) -
dream
there I was in a cascette ...past funerals translucent and hovering amongst it . I can't see ...whether i was child or a dead man , but no one there was crying over me. Murmurs blurred as did their faces, who's blessings hung onto their tears...blood bonds now only traces to hide in coming Years. Songs once sung would remain so familiar, that ( Read more... ) -
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It's been a Little over 3 weeks since meadow was born...I should be writing in her baby book...maybe I'll just Do that tomorrow but...Kyler is mad about my trip to arcata... It's weird how I've changed...before when he'd be mad...it would only push me away now it crushes me and I cry and want his forgiveness...I believe I'm in love.. This too ( Read more... ) -
fynn
Today my cousin Fynn was born, his due date was
09/24 3 days before Meadows, I wish I could have her Wednesday...IM ready now, and I can't handle work!...im exhausted....fynn was 6lbs 4 oz...meadow is already bigger than that...no fair!:(
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work
So IM here, in
Appearance I'm ready, physically however I'm unfit! Braxton Hicks today and this weird weak fuzzy feeling all over.great rate is up and I'm dreading this afternoon. I'm just looking forward to when Kyler picks me ...spending time with him has Been so wonderful.. We haven't been genuinelyy happy together.
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