so much has happened since i last posted. a lot has fizzled into nothingness. but a lot of ups and downs. minor ups and downs. but they have all lead up to this point: where i started. i was so low at one point. then good things started happening. i became very high at one point. but i have crashed back into nothing. not sad. not happy. indifferent ( Read more... )

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 46% Stability |||||||||||||| 53% Orderliness |||||||||||||||| 63% Accommodation |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56% Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 70% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63% Artistic |||||| 23% Religious |||||||||||| 43% Hedonism |||| ( Read more... )

speaker dude... wasted talent really. he could have a really funny routine. if he would just get rid of all that abstinence crap. its not that i dont like the message, but i dont necessarily agree with it. abstinence is great, but the youth need to know about condoms and the like. but really, he needs to die. and i think i will end that portion of ( Read more... )

7 days straight. i worked 7 days straight after tomorrow. 7! friday-thursday. two of those days i had to work at 6 in the morning. the other 5 i had school. now dont get me wrong, i wasnt scheduled to work 7 straight. i was suppossed to go 7 of 8 days, but i traded with derek so he would be able to take anger management, so i lost my friday with ( Read more... )

ecmc was not at all bad. i had a really good time. but the icu... i dont know why, but i dont like that place. "i'm not afraid to die, i just dont wan tto be there when it happens." i dont know, i have been to major hospitals twice since high school, and both times i really didnt want to be there. i think i know how i want to die, i have said quick ( Read more... )

so hump day is just about through. thank God. after today the week goes into coast mode. right? this week needs to be done and over with. too many teachers held things off until the last week or two of the quarter to catch up with the grade book ( Read more... )

this stinks so bad. everyone is in such a good mood. great even. but not me. i cant get happy for some reason. even the things that would give me minor ups are gone. now i really have two emotions now: pain from my multiple burns ("i hurt myself today to see if i still feel") and tiredness from my lack of sleep. and boy do those burns hurt. it ( Read more... )

"(Can't Get My) Head Around You"

Deep inside your soul there's a hole you don't wanna see
Every single day what you say makes no sense to me
Even though I try I can't get my head around you

Somewhere in the night there's a light in front of me
Heaven up above with a shove, abandons me
Even though I try I fall in the river of you
You've managed to bring me ( Read more... )

so i learned something new tonight. back drive-thru sucks. you cant hear a word the people are saying, they have no idea whats going on, i have no idea whats going on, i cant make heads or tails of the screen. so yes. kevin coleman did back drive-thru for an hour and 15 minutes. just barely lived thru it though. oh man it was rough. my time to ( Read more... )

she should make up her mind. a clean break would be best. she said she needs help. so i go to help her out. because i am a nice guy (and the fact that i dont really like sitting with amelia or the other girls who always talk about getting drunk and mark wasnt going to be there today). so i sit. i am there to help. she doesnt ask a single question. ( Read more... )