I have become one strong girl. I have been fucked over, made a fool of, embarrassed, crushed, and heartbroken so many times that nearly all of the weakness that a typical girl should possess, is unknown to me ( Read more... )

The past week... to sum it up: Life is changing... and everything is different now.

Camping with P, C, C, B, L, L, and K was a great experience. Honestly, I walked away from the weekend a lot tougher. We come off as prissy girls, incapable of living without mirrors and straightners, but that all changed. We were constantly drunk... our toilet was ( Read more... )

I havent had a chance to get on here in so long. i feel so behind ( Read more... )

I havent been around in a while... sadly, I've been too busy to sit down and devote time to this. And it sucks, because I want to remember what's happened and where I've been and what I want and how I feel... Lord knows my feelings change by the moment.

Recent News / Revelations / Other Shit

>>>> North Carolina was a nice escape. I realized ( Read more... )

I need to figure out whats important to me... what matters most... what i cherish and what i simply enjoy within the moment. What I want is a crystal ball... but that would be too easy. Sometimes... I just dont know what the fuck to do. I never had great guidance.Monday... I proved to myself that life is what I make of it. K and I ended up @ Xando ( Read more... )

When you're not on happy terms with the person you love deeply, its hard to find happiness elsewhere. Friday night... K, C, S and I ended up @ a party at JM's house. Nothing super. M is possesive to the point that I feel guilty if I'm not angelic while we're apart. He makes me regret...

Saturday night.. A's had a bash. Consequently, I got ( Read more... )

I collect my thoughts and I'm prepaired to burden him with my true feelings...

but NO! He had to hold me and whisper and gaze... and any rational thought that had been perched at the tip of my tongue dissolved. Super ( Read more... )

So life is nearly normal again... or as normal is my life can get ( Read more... )

Today's lesson: In a moment, everything can change ( Read more... )

her: all you care about is your little white friends, you flock to them.
me: i'm friends with people who accept me and love me.
her: in the end, they wont be there for you... I'm so disgusted with you. You're mother isnt supposed to say things like that. She's pushed me away... i'm turning, and walking forward... i'll look back, but I wont ( Read more... )