I have been feeling down about life in general and I wanted to write or talk to someone who wouldn't judge me or who might even understand me.... they don't exist. So, I thought, what about a blog! Then, I remembered LiveJournal.... Can you believe its been nearly 3 years? I once said these exact words but when I write, it's always true.... This ( Read more... )

It is amazing how powerful time truly is. I just went through and read all my entries from 2006 (which didn't take long since I don't post often) and occured to me that I usually only post when I am down-trodden, depressed, or on the rare occasion, angry. Even though as I read each entry, I could visualize where I was at in my life and remember ( Read more... )

I have been leading a hectic life of love and hate, and wishful thinking and remorse. I am done. Yes, bad things happen in this world but so do wonderful things. If people can't see that I am worthy of having in their lives, then so be it, I will not be down-trodden or walked on any more ( Read more... )

It's amazing how much stress you can bring upon yourself. I know that I am a good person, that I am compassionate, that I love deeply, that I have a lot to offer, that I am 100x more beautiful when I'm laughing and smiling, that I will one day make someone very happy, that I am reliable, trustworthy, a good listener, and very blessed with the ( Read more... )

Paul and I broke up. It is so hard. I care about him so much. I can't stop crying. I cry all the time. I don't know what to do with myself. Help me.

I can't keep doing this.
I can't keep saving face.
I can't keep putting the pieces back together.

I'm tired of the constant worrying.
I'm tired of the not knowing.
I'm tired of being the only one fighting for us.

I wish you understood.
I wish you could see.
I wish that you never doubted me.

I just felt like writing and I feel my audience here on LJ are little more suited for the content. There will be no rganization. Sorry ( Read more... )

I was thinking. I once wrote the following sentences:

One step forward, two steps back. One step forward...
I'm still behind but I'm better than I was one step ago.

At the moment, I feel like I'm running in place. I don't know if I'm about to go full steam ahead or if I'm going to fall flat on my face. I hope I don't fall.

do you ever feel like you need to talk or write but have no idea what needs to be said or written? all of a sudden I am not happy. I go from one extreme to the other. maybe I'm bi-polar. whatever I am, I don't want to be me anymore. I actually know where all this is coming from. It really won't make muuch sense to anyone but I need to write, ( Read more... )

Hmmmm......... Well someone asked me why I don't post anymore. I don't know why. I think it's been over 3 months since my last post. Let me give you an overview of the last 3 months ( Read more... )