i've decided i need to lose 10 lbs. before I'm ever seen in a bathingsuit again! too bad I know that won't happen because I'm planning on going to the beach tomorrow. lol.

ugh so I'm okay. I've been better but I've also been A LOT worse. Actually, I guess I am pretty good. I miss a lot of things in life right now. This summer has just been frusterating because I haven't gotten a summer like a normal sixteen year old. I want school to start but at the same time I don't. I have a thyroid scan on thursday. Which is ( Read more... )

It makes me sad to see you sad. I have just come to realize that's why people have been getting frusterated with me lately. Because I have been stupid and stressed. I'm working on it I really am ( Read more... )

nothing can ever just be okay.
my thyroid doctor said it's not my thyroid.
i don't know what's left to do.

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I don't want to talk. I just want to sit here and feel thankful for every moment of my entire life. For every wonderful and terrible thing that has ever happend to me. For everything that I am and have become. For everyone I've known and know and the people who I care about the most. For the days when nothing can bring you down and the days you ( Read more... )

"we accept the love we think we diserve ( Read more... )

i'm so content with life right now. with everything. I realize to take my own advice and accept that what doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Being here is such a blessing that I always take for granted. I don't diserve to have such a good life because I don't appreciate it. I am learning to though. Things take time. I'm working on it though. I ( Read more... )

So I have never been so excited or happy about having a doctors appointment. I had my biopsy on my thyroid and it came up begning (not cancer) and so that was good but we still need to figure out what's going on with it. So my doctor refered me to an endocronologist which is a doctor that specializes in thyroids and I finally got an appointment and ( Read more... )

heaven knows it's that time.

I WENT TO THE FAB FOUR BEATLES TRIBUTE AT THE OC FAIR. IT WAS SOOO AMAZING. THEY SOUNDED EXACTALLY LIKE THE REAL BEATLES. EVERY SONG THEY PLAYED WAS JUST INCREDIBLE. I WAS REALLY BUMMED THAT THEY DIDN'T PLAY MAYBE I'M AMAZED OR HELP! OR DON'T LET ME DOWN. THOSE ARE DEFINATLY MY FAVORITES BUT THATS OKAY THEIR SONG CHOICES WERE GOOD. THEY ENDED WITH ( Read more... )