ahhhhhh yes the complex nature of my relationship with jason. we are fine now, he had a momentary flip out but all is ok. i'm content. however on that note, heater bell who attends ferris with jason told him that quote "there is somthing you should know about kendra." jason knows my shady and hauted past so i am confident she will either tell him ( Read more... )

Last night @ 2 am I got a phone call from the man i love saying that he can no longer be with me. When i asked him why he said that i hadn't been honest with him. He was hysterical, so i asked him what on earth he was talking about, he said that someone had told him that i had been smoking pot 2 nights ago. This is true, and since the only person ( Read more... )

November 8th a day to be remembered drunken slip-n-slides, tacos, and beer pong. good times good times, hanging with the neighbors.

I'm as content as i ever am right now and i feel pretty happy as far as scool goes i got a 90% on my chem quiz so i'm feeling good about that. the jay man and i are doing well and my root canal went excellently with no pain whatsoever. all in all things are ok latly. i'm working on diging myself out of the debt hole that i put myself in..... life ( Read more... )

More uneasy feelings, i'm better now or maybe its just that its early and i'm still sleepy... I love Jason soooooo much.... but i still have those doubts. I don't know what to do, try and make it work or move on. i've tried life without him and that sucks worse than life with him. but if i'm with him then i put myself through the same crappy cycle ( Read more... )

Things are going a wee bit better for me but i still don't feel so well, but i will get over it so its ok. I was having a good night but at the same time those lingering thoughts keep popping up and i hate them. at any rate mal tagged me so here goes ( Read more... )

Not doing so well.

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Sometimes i just wonder.... am I ever going to dig myself out of this hole I've put myself in? Will I ever come to terms with the thoughts i find running through my head? Will I ever be at peace for more than a few days? Is anything ever going to work because it has to? Will my family ever stop letting me down? Will they ever welcome me again? I ( Read more... )

Things are better, I'm really going to start looking for a job up here though. i need then money, i think the bank is making a mistake about how much i have in my checking account though, they think i have WAY more money than i do which is good since its not the other way around. i had a good weekend, hanging around with jason was relaxing and long ( Read more... )