in the clouds...holy shit, in the clouds. exactly what i needed. perfect timing and all, everything happens for a fuckin reason. could i be happier? i really don't think so ( Read more... )

today would have been our 3 year anniversary. i wonder if this date will just always have meaning to me. i won't lie, i am wondering if he remembered. and, i guess it would make me a little happy to know he did ( Read more... )

even if you know it's for the better. i hate having stupid dreams that have strong implications. they're so real. i wish i didn't feel that way. it's frustrating.

so i'm listening to the late nites/red lites cd. stupid me. it was too tempting after i got that email. couldn't help myself. i know it's dumb and bad for me, but whatever. it makes me happy ( Read more... )

well holy shit. the surprise of all surprises, j wrote me an email. i hate that it gets me so excited. but it really was super exciting this time cuz i've been contemplating writing him the past few days, and he beat me to it. i was wondering if i should wait for him or just suck it up and write him first like i always do. anywayz, it was nice ( Read more... )

first official day of school after that long vacation. kept up w/ nihongo cuz i had to but basically put everything else back on hold. was supposed to study last night, but just didn't feel like it. didn't have the madd writing session w/ my diary either like i had planned on. got caught up talkin w/ t and m instead. it's all good. i must ( Read more... )

not major disappointment. just...yeah... a bit disappointed in the whole weekend. came to a lot of realizations about love, life, boys, taiko, me, and problems i have with myself. yes there were definitely high points. but overall i feel kind of bleh ( Read more... )

today is wednesday. just finished my paper, turning it in when i have class in a half hour. 2 hours of class, 2 hours of taiko practice, cleaning my room like crazy, then trying to sleep. like a little kid before christmas morning. the faster i sleep, the faster he gets here ( Read more... )

so i've got a paper that i gotta email out tonight and it shouldn't be too hard or anything...just don't really feel like workin on it right now. so i guess it's time for my weekly update ( Read more... )

just finished week 4. crazy. it's already mid-october. however, these days, i'm happy to see them pass by so quickly and easily. he actually bought his ticket! holy shit. can't believe he got it together and is coming in less than two weeks. i'm so damn excited and even more excited knowing that he's excited. heh heh. he's definitely got ( Read more... )