I don't really know what to say...I'm just shocked and have no idea how to react to what happened...

I mean...I haven't talked to her much in like a year but...shes still a friend of mine. I never imagined anything like this could happen...

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Life is getting better: not in the "holy shit I fucking have a beautiful dream!" way but in a more stable "life is beautiful" way ( Read more... )

I feel...something. I want to say I hate everything, myself mostly but at the same timei just feel like i don't have the means or the knowledge to change my surroundings to a more pleasurable state or whether one even exists ( Read more... )

The past couple days have been kind of shitty ( Read more... )

Anyone who knows me really well (of which there may be less than I thought given this qualification) knows that hope is a big part of my life. I conciously think about hope quite often. It's the closest thing I have to a real belief.

Sometime before I came to NU again I lost hope. I know I had it during the summer because it's all that was able to ( Read more... )

there was a girl last quarter who i broke up with because i thought i was using her (because of how much she liked me in comparison to how much i liked her) and because she was easier to throw out then other aspects of my life. Over break I came to realize how dependent I had become on her liking me and found that in some effed up way I was in love ( Read more... )

I kind of want to run from anyone and everyone I've ever known.
In my arrogance and egocentrism I've stopped myself from making any sort of meaningful connections to other human beings it seems and fo some reason the ones i have i want o throw away right now.
I don't want to be here.

( stolen year end survey )