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making sense
for the first time in a long time, i have a brilliant thought... i said to a friend ( Read more... ) -
want, need, have-have nots
i don't want to live my life affraid to lose him... affraid of my thoughts,words, or actions.. i'm terrified all the time that i'm going to do or say something that he doesn't like and he'll just push me out and push me away.. i feel like he has to be in control of every situation - that somehow i've given him all of this power over me and it has ( Read more... ) -
anxious future self
...we (scott,melinda,and i) are moving into a townhome at the end of this month off of wendover ave. i'm more than nervous about this move.. it's completely out of my safety net.. i'll be away from the things that i love.. those being people i care about and tate st. now, i'll have to be extra careful with how much i drink when i go to NYP - ( Read more... ) -
more contemplation
so.. i'm thinking about my book - typing down some history and i get this strong wave of anxiety come over me. i'm thinking about all the confessions i need to make.. how this won't look so good on my family. i mean... who can write a book about how many trials ones accomplished without some deep introspection from ones past? past including my ( Read more... ) -
contemplation
i sit here and wonder how many of us are walking zombies in life... how many of us are just going through the movements, following paths that people see fit for us to walk down - but not really places that we want to be. how many of us just are going through the motions.. does life , actual LIVING make a difference.. and how can you be sure that ( Read more... ) -
is this life?
i'm trying to figure out what exactly is it that i did with the last year of my life ( Read more... ) -
illyria
she's just a girl in someones shell. she doesn't understand this world..... she once ruled this domain and now she is dimenished into a mortal body. she is confused and doesn't understand how humans took over when all that were here were demons ( Read more... ) -
because ashley has a cool video on her myspace
Jolene, jolene, jolene, jolene ( Read more... ) -
tears
i am soo sad. -
greensboro
i really love greensboro sometimes... i finally went downtown on elm street to that new fountain park... lots of neat little fountains.. beautiful, serene.. met this guy brian down there - he had been trying to hang out like forever.. i finally gave in and told him i'd meet him somewhere.. it was alright.. the park was gorgous.. it was weird ( Read more... )
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