i'm tired of not getting what i want because other people are afraid of what others may say.
just live for you and not them.
don't be so cautious...
you only live once,
so why not fuck it up good.

although i must admit it was nice to finally say what i wanted to, even if i don't think you heard it.

i am moving to california tomorrow. ill be there all summer! im excited! glad to be anywhere but vegas.

life takes interesting turns. unpredictable and beautiful.

why am i so anxious and cant tell the person anything?
why can't i get the balls to do anything.
i feel like a little pansy.
someone make me do it.

Life has been happening so fast this week i can barely keep up with it ( Read more... )

i think i might like this guy.
its a weird feeling.

so this past week has been rather interesting. i really don't know what is going on with my life. i feel like i should just go with the flow, but i don't want to pretend to want something that i really don't want. long distance is not something that i can commit to. its not something that i believe in. i still have so much here that i want to ( Read more... )

sometimes trying to define things is the hardest part of all.
how do you make things less awkward?
i don't think you can.
oh life...
it is just a series of unfortunate awkward events that occur one after another.
lesigh.

im just fed up with it all.
i am so unmotivated and don't know how i got into this position.
my life is really hazy. i wish i knew how to fix it.
home in a week.
maybe that will bring some clarity.
heres to hoping for the best

sometimes...
i hate living in indiana.
i hate being a girl.
i hate being sick.
i hate the choices i've made.
oh well...
getting shit back together
always getting sucked into shit and then having to pick up the pieces.
i guess it always happens this way.