Sad.. i couldn't make up my mind till the day before bee team tryouts. Because a friend of mine talked me into doing it. I was shot down by the head of training. It sucks cause i feel like i have already try'd out and they said no you suck ( Read more... )

I think i have been Avoiding talking to my mom on the phone because of this weekend.I am still not fully in into derby and all i want to do is give up but i know i cant. I wish things where easier and i wish i wasnt in the mind set of i am awesome at derby........ I just wish i would get out of this Slump. Talking to Tanya helped today so we will ( Read more... )

I dunno if i have a mental block for derby or what but i just get kinda depressed when i think of it. Yes i love my team and yes i love derby. But for some reason i just dont want to go to practices. i dunno if its i have over done it or i have what they call peaked and havent gotten over the hump. Because i have hit the peak and got over the hump ( Read more... )

Wow. So I have been getting a lot of feed back from a coach of dsdg(The All Star team)and she wants me to keep going to the open practices. Well I am, but at the same time I dont feel like I have been doing my best. I got some new skates and they are leather and are hard to break in.day there with them and I can't do anything I use to do.it's like ( Read more... )

Getting chewed out at work today was not fun and it was pointless shit to. I wish my daddy was here I will elaborate more later. But its bed time

Its a kick ass movie...I wish i could live in a movie with a happy ending...

Blah...I feel like i am stuck at a road block and a dead end....I feel like i dont have my Social life or any thing all i keep doing is hanging out with my mom and sister yea its not a bad thing cause i love them but i do need a break my mom buggs me about stupid stuff and theres like lil things she does that arent needed for.Blah i think being at ( Read more... )

Omg...Right now i am Fumed all this shit going on!! i have NO MONEY!!!!! FUCK!!! all the money i do have is going towards this cruise i am going on that i keep debateing on weather i am ganna go or not! I am fucking Piss all i wanted to do was have a job. keep it get payed make money and have fun in life and now no one will hire me JUST CAUSE I ( Read more... )

hole e SHAT!! i have not posted on this thing in for ever and i am sad i remeber when i use to post as much as possible and now it seems as though i dont talk about anything i am going through any more. sad cause i have had some good input on things lately..grr that makes me a bit sad i havent freakin posted. any way i will no longer have a job the ( Read more... )

Well due to Some ppl i will be makeing all of my post Friends only because ppl cant handle the fact that this is my journal and i say what i feel.And If they cant handle it they can shove a Fat one.And in other news...my room mate had Officaly Moved out and Boy am i glad i have an apartment to my freakin SELF!! haha!! i dont have to put up with ( Read more... )