I'll admit I'm a little upset about this. The whole dress thing..the whole effing situation.  You can't bother to call like you say you will.  Can't be bothered to come see me and now this? How much am I expected to put up with? How can you tell me I mean something when everything points contrary to that? You honestly don't effing care and I've ( Read more... )

Tony came over last night, in fact, he's still here.  Looking wicked cute with his bed tousled hair, rolling a  blunt.  Seems I've been smoking alot when he's around but hey! At least I'm starting to sleep again at night.  I'm not sure if its the smoking or the guy, but either way Im thankful that sleep no longer eludes me like it has been.  I got ( Read more... )

That's what I used to think was possible.  Now a days, I'm beginning to think fairy tales and happily ever after are a myth, reserved for the people in life who have abided by all the rules.  I can sit back and curse karma all I want but maybe this is of my own doing. Its not just my karma fucking with me but his as well and together...well, I can ( Read more... )

So, since I've been sans computer the last week I figured I'd fill everyone in on whats been going on ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was a bit of a disaster in terms of my ongoing struggle to retain any semblance of a relationship with P Deuce. He was being most uncooperative last night, stiff as a board while I tried to snuggle him until I simply stopped trying. So, instead I told him to go home but we ended up snuggling anyway. It was sweet, in its own way. ( Read more... )

Stupid boy denied me cuddling when I have a migraine. Err...he's so mean sometimes. Not that I blame him since he's exhausted but still...all I wanted was some cuddling and he said he could feel me pout. Is that possible? You have to know someone pretty well to actually be able to start 'feeling' their moods..or so I think. But then again I ( Read more... )

So, I really didn' t want to go to work today and I guess for once it was my life trying to warm me that I had a shitty day on the horizon and oh my was it right.  She was there today, scoping the place out with Nicky and Matt but I must say that Nicky totally made my day.  He came up to the case and made faces at me through the glass, waving.  He' ( Read more... )

You know when you want to do something and its all you really want to do? I'm having one of those days but it seems like no one else is craving what I want.  Ugh.  I hate moods like this.  I was having such a nice day too.  Spent it outside at Frog Pond and then up at camp with family, totally called off work because I put a nail through my foot ( Read more... )

Its that time of night again.  Midnightish or a little after and i know this, not because its dark outside, but because of the empty feeling that resides within my breast.  He's gone.  Left like a shadow; fleeting in the midday sun.  He's been gone for 10 minutes and already his warmth is fading, the scent of his skin swept away by the gentle ( Read more... )

For everyone I haven't told....

This is Aresa.  I've decided to start using my LJ again to keep people updated.

I didn't want people to be weirded out by a random friend request but you all know me.

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Much love and adoration.
Resa