life has stopped..something that everyone said would never happen, it has.

nothing has meaning..and i can't say that it ever will.

everything seems so...unreal..and it is.

this was my first saturday in about 6 years that i didn't see his gorgeous face.

.......*Matt*.......

when he's really meant to me i wish that he would be nicer to justify my feelings for him..when he's nice i wish that he was mean so that it might cause me to not like him anymore. and then i see him..and it hurts...but as much as it hurts we can sit there and laugh..and be normal..and comfortable and not weird..but i feel so out of place..yet i ( Read more... )

** today was national "make jessika feel like shit" day..thank you to all of those who participated. **

j is for...
just take me back
e is for...
everlasting sorrow
s is for...
sad face
s is for...
salmon
i is for...
i have no soul
k is for...
killing me slowly
a is for..
alway watching you

..compliments of the lovely matt mesa!

"this is good fucking coffee...this coffee is fucking good!!" or so says luna's brother's....friend? oh my gosh..so i have many a thing to discuss but i don't have a lot of time..so i'll give you the quick run down and then maybe later i'll discuss in detail. tuesday night i went to the hustler store with heather, oscar, and liz, it was a lot of ( Read more... )

mason and i are tired and bored..but we've decided it's too late to sleep. i suddenly just got really sad..how weird is that. oh man i have a lot to talk about but i dno't feel like it right now..i'll make a note to self for later.

alright so lately i've been going over a lot of shit in my head..none of really makes sense..none of it ever makes sense..or maybe it does. sense or no sense i figure maybe writing it down will bring me to some kind of realization. introductions..who needs em ( Read more... )

** so my tattoo is all done scabbing and such..i really like it! i got accepted to FSU...also excited about that..i can't wait til jackie gets accpeted so that i can stop worrying about it ( Read more... )

so guess what i did last night. i got my tattoo. well some of it. three stars on my side..only 22 more to go. hehe. that shit hurt like hell. but it won't be finished until college anyway. i don't want to kill my mother, just keep her on her toes. so yea. the guy was awesome. he joked around with liz and i and he made it not so bad. i think ( Read more... )

..so i did something wholesome this weekend..well at least on saturday. liz and i went on night of joy..which was real exciting. we had ssooooo much fun!!!! we went on everything at least once..and we ate huge icea cream sandwiches..hehe. we had a goal to make at least 2 new friends..and we did..that's right. infact we made like 20 of them and ( Read more... )