To be happy is to be selfish, I honestly believe that. I don't understand why I always feel that need to be everyone else's beast of burden, but then never my own. I love to run away and bury myself in something fantastical. Weave a cocoon that can deflect all the pain and emotion that I feel. But how fast and far do you have to run before it ( Read more... )

I couldn't sleep last night. The dream I slightly remember having was Isbelle singing "Vocea". Tht song haunts my mind. She was such a beautiful singer. I had to turn off the Varekai soundtrack. I think for the next few weeks or so, the soundtrack will not satisify me. I want to hear it live, I want to hear Isbelle's twist on "Vocea", the thrill ( Read more... )

( Varekai thoughts...one of many )

I'm soaking it all in. OH MY GOD! I can't believe...I...good lord ( Read more... )

This is for Stephanie mostly imajican, because I forgot to mention I saw Dergin yesterday, pushing himself around on his wheelchair. Because of my mom and her past history of working with handicapped kids, I sorta felt a pang of sympathy for him. I couldn't help it -- but that was the first time I saw him. The second time I saw him, someone handed him ( Read more... )

Last night was a late night. Didn't come back from Boston till nighttime, stayed up till 2 for whatever reason. So I don't think I have enough energy to write a full long detalied account of orientation. Trevor gave me a huge smile when he saw me, but then proceded to guess my name. "Carlee..no, Kimora, no..Kimber..no,..no..don't tell me..I want to ( Read more... )

I just realized that right now, its 1 o'clock, Saturday, the 24th. I am headed to Cirque orientation/training in another 12 hours, but more importantly, I'm seeing Varekai in 1 day. Meeting Kevin and Andrew in slightly more then 24 hours. I am nervous. My gifts looks a bit shabby. I shouldn't be nervous, but I am ( Read more... )

So make no qualms about it - working for Cirque is hard hard business. Forgive me if my grammar's off. My fingers hurt. I know that this will only be of intrest to only a certian few people who read my lj. I'm thinking about doing a Cirque fliter for my friends list. Its a long entry too, so I'm going to put this in a lj cut. Lots of enlighted ( Read more... )

I'm going to spasm. Travis just called. Who is Travis? One of the many, many managers of Addeco's Cirque temp. workers. So what's going on ( Read more... )

Updated with new stuff! Read -- because my life is just that hilarious. :-) Well ( Read more... )