Wow. Where did the days and the time go? ...

What ever happened to living every day to the fullest.
Slooow down world.

Its October. I feel like I'm in the same place I was not that long ago. Back at my parents, looking for a new job and ending friendships and relationships from my passed. Although this time it feels different. I am quitting smoking, which for me is a big step and the last crutch I have been needing to cut out of my life. Also I am in hopes of going ( Read more... )

I came over and you were just waking up, i had a feeling the converation was going to end terribly. It wasn't what i wanted, it was what we needed to do. I miss talking to you before I go to bed, and laying with you naked watching movies and not caring about anything going on around us. I miss all of those things. I love you still, so much. Its ( Read more... )

..out of the 'band meeting' house. That place is terrible really, cold and hot, dirty as fuck even if you clean it, and if you do clean it within 3 hrs its a mess again thanks to the 9 people total living there. Everyone there is wasted, high on something, or coming down off something constantly, every day. Its uncomfortable walking around and in ( Read more... )

When I could write a paragraph and feel like I got it all out of my brain. Now seeing as I don't write as often as I used to I feel like I can't get it all out. What it comes down to is, my brain never shuts off, and in the way I'm saying that I don't mean I want to not think completely. Just the stuff that doesn't matter that crosses my brain ( Read more... )

... And I'd rather be sitting here. I'm listening to what I've always thought to be our song, explosions in the sky, your hand in mine. It was going to be our wedding song. I mean who's to know if in the future it wont be. I'm glad i didn't take ecstasy tonight i just wanted to so he would pay more attention to me. Sadly enough it appears like when ( Read more... )

I am stuck. I wish you wouldn't do that, i have no control over what you do. You wanted to take a big step that would have helped it all if you wanted to help your self enough, i new you'd get off work the next morning and say no against it again. Do i sit back and blind my self to what you are doing, what you may think is not a lot, yes it could ( Read more... )

Its almost summer, getting married late june early july. I love danial joseph stovall. Things are getting way better. I have a job full time at a day care. The sun is shineing and there are flowers everywhere. I love summer. I love the sun and the beach. And the relaxing feeling the entire time even if your stuck at work most of the time. I'm ( Read more... )

I love dan. With every last bit of me. Hes amazing. I wish he could understand when i jumble my words and get mixed up when im on the spot i wnat to marry him. i want him to be my husband for better or for worse. He honestly makes me, me. I would do anything for him. I need to remember what advice he gives me and take action. I need to calm down ( Read more... )

Usually Mondays are terrible. But today was good. High points and low points and some inbetween. Had a lot on my mind lately with family and school related issues. Or what ever you wanna call them. Deffintly went to the dentist today, and i hate that place. Not only do they try and talk to you with tools in your mouth but mine decided to not pay ( Read more... )