Stop? Keep going? Stop? Keep going? -Ooofta-, thats all I have to say. Sitting here sipping on coffee, eyes half open its 1pm and I'm tired as if it was 4am. Although i went to bed at 4am.. Could be why. I have been thinking about some things this morning. I'm happy. Although lately I keep getting some what depressed. Its my unstable, old self ( Read more... )

Enneagram Type 8 - The Challenger ( Read more... )

Not what a typical birthday would be like ( Read more... )

Thinking again today. Very different yet simalur thoughts and feelings as a couple days ago. My whole day i go on while i have this feeling of discomfort in my stomach. As uncomfortable as when you feel a thick layer of tounge cheese on your tounge. It feels like the texture of what u might call something cheese like, you know when u can scrape it ( Read more... )

In the last entry i said i regret many things.. No i don't regret anything, because i noticed that every bad thing that has happend to me, has ended with something greater and something to smile about ( Read more... )

So much stuff ive done in the passed, guilt is catching up with me ( Read more... )

I'm noticing a big change in my self and still trying to work on other shit i need to do. And things i need to STOP doing.

Oh god im so anxcious right now.
and paranoid.
For no specific reason.
i want to take a long nap and wake up feeling a little normal.
or at least normal for who I AM.. yes.

I miss painting.. and I painted tonight.. It made me feel 10 times better. I was kind of shakey earlyer. Went to my sisters graduation. It was a disaster, not anything that happend exactly in the graduation. More so it had to do with family problems and such. Just some of the shit my mom said to me. Really bothered me. But something rachel said a ( Read more... )

Recently as things have been changing I've noticed more and more what I want to do in the future. I'm not going to say I know what I am going to do with my LIFE cause no one can ever really say. It changes all the time, for everybody. Anyways.. about the drug thing I was thinking the other day about drugs and such, someone asked me to go to some ( Read more... )

I am free from my self. I am almost completely satisfied with who i am again ( Read more... )