should i die, i want to, i don't know why, it doesn't make any sense i just know i shouldn't be here anymore, lord knows i'm just a giant pussy which is just reassurance for why i should die. i look at all the hardship others go though and i think god i would gladly give my life to make their pain go away............ i shouldn't be drinking, lord ( Read more... )

truth is i thought i would die in Afghanistan, i was sure i would. but when i came back i kinda wished i had died there. why fuck cause i have nothing, i know nothing. im a waste, i hate myself, im a burden on society, my family, my friensds, hell pretty much anyone thats ever known me. and worst of all im a fucking pussy, a weakling. so i try to ( Read more... )

im sure nobodys on this anymore so the rants more for me ( Read more... )

May 25 2009 Sgt Richard Arnold Dempster was found dead in his basement ( Read more... )

all right so my 1st sgt just told me i have a choice whether i go on the next deployment or get out of the army, where originally i had no idea what was coming and had to prep for both ( Read more... )

well i havent posted in a while so heres whats been goin on ( Read more... )

this post is going to be about all of the fucked up shit that happens out in iraq, most of it will be funny,i cant tell you what is supposed to be done though ( Read more... )

so i know its illegal and i could get in a lot of shit over here for it, but i got alcohol sent over and now im fuckin shit faced, so man its really hard to type without fuckin it up. i dunno what to say im just bored lonely and horny, just the lonely is amplified due to the drink. im a very social drinker (in the sense that i become very ( Read more... )

i know ive been online near constantly recently, and it makes me feel relly creepy but i promised myself to stay in contact with everyone a lot better seeing as before i went on R&R i was horrible with keeping in touch with people. so now im tryin my best to keep up with everyone. man i feel like a goober.

I went to england for R&R leave from iraq. it was cool when i was there. saw family, got smashed, you know the norm. i knew an old freind from when i used to live there, and it turns out he still lives there. i always had the hots for his sister, she was the first chick i ever liked ( Read more... )