So yesterday was pretty good.
Alex,my brother & I 
went to antioch
to my fam bam bbq.
It wasnt too bad really.
my family seems to like alex.
my cousin ben kept shootin him
"the eye" & said like..
"you better take care of my cousin"
lol i love him.
i hella missed him =/

then we came back & kicked it for a bit
then headed to christinas new place.
& they all got ( Read more... )

well its here
4 weeks.
im so fucking happy I have him
he stayed over last night
and we were awake off n on
but the awakeness
was filled with lots of
kisses & hugs
& whispers of "i love you's"
he left at about 9:30am
and i went back to sleep.
imma see him later
i think after work?

[off topic]
fuck i found alot of bug bites on mr.
they're everywhere!
its gross
& ( Read more... )

im hella sick
of fake ass ppl
thinkin they know me
fuck it

the drama that happened
was somewhat squashed
but not totally
but what more can I do really?
ugh

but all i know is
my true friends love me
& so does my bf
actually
i consider him
a friend as well.

fuck it
good night
<3

so i was thinking about
alex...[as always]
& I thought
what if he asked me "why i love him"
& its hard to put into words
because
its hard to describe.
there are a few specifics
but it doesnt cover EVERYTHING;
the way he smells
the way he holdes me close
the way he kisses me
the way he whispers innmy ear "i love you"
when he holds my hand when we drive somewhere
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I got plans man
im gonna take some pix
 to make a portfolio
to send to modeling places
also
imma look into gettin 
my business license
cuz im tryin to do the
grown shit now
ya know?
work on gettin a job
& lookin to move out

& in the boyfriend dept
things are good
we have had a few
rough patches
but we're good =]
Im happier then ever
& i really hope it works
for "the ( Read more... )

bbq today
lets hope
theres no drama
mmm i get to see
alex again today
i love him
i cant say that enough
haha
<3

Three weeks today =]
god I love that guy so much
hes way to sweet sometimes
I feel everytime we kick it
we get closer
& learn more about each other
we click so well
oh man...
I love just falling asleep in his arms
and just looking into his eyes
when im in his arms
i know im safe.

its so crazy
how in three weeks
hes made me happier
then any of my ex's did
the ( Read more... )

Time moves at a weird pace.
I feel like alex and I have been together
a hell of a lot longer then we have.
its hella crazy.
it'll be three weeks tomorrow.
hmmm.

I was gonna go camping with my sis
& a bunch of others
but im deciding against it
fuck the drama
& some of the ppl along with it
they cant seem to grow up
i wanna have a good b-day
& be with the ppl I ( Read more... )

I love him
but i have to keep my gaurd up
only cuz if i dont
ill end up letting myself down
farther then ever.
& im not ready to fall that far.
i mean
im thinking positive
about this whole thing.
dont get me wrong.

but im trying my best
not to put my whole heart into it
but its hard not to
when we're sitting together
and hes looking into my eyes
holding my hand
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wtf
my livejournal wasnt letting me post for hella long.
lame as fuckkkk
so anyways.

my show was a success
with a few bumps
but thats pretty normal.
met some new ppl
and got a few bucks for doin it.

we're prolly gonna do one a month
from now on.
dunno what bands imma book next time
or when exactly it will happen.

the past few days have been
non stop partys
mainly ( Read more... )