i was thinking last night, maybe he was right. maybe it really was fate. it just wasn't the fate we foresaw, it wasn't the fate any of us wanted. but isn't that the thing with fate, you don't get to choose? I can't help but feel that three lives have been changed forever. A chapter just ended for all of us. None of us are happy. We all got fucked ( Read more... )

"We made love on the living room floor, with the noise in the background from a televised WAR." :(

i think im going to start applying for out of state colleges. hmmm.

No smoke without you, my fire.
After you left,
your cigarette glowed on in my ashtray
and sent up a long thread of such quiet grey
I smiled to wonder who would believe its signal
of so much love. One cigarette
in the non-smoker's tray.
As the last spire
trembles up, a sudden draught
blows it winding into my face.
Is it smell, is it taste?
You are here again, ( Read more... )

Woke up this morning
Trying hard to hide my melancholy
I joined you for breakfast
And we continued our lie
Every day it is similar
You are cheery
And so am I
Oh our terrible lie..

my boyfriend just turned 20! hah. makes me feel young. i like that. :)

Spark. The smell of burning tabacco mixes with White Musk. It sits there, on the edge of the generic black plastic. The smoke is white and magical as it slowly rises from the tip. It slips through the room like delicate fingers conducting an invisible orchestra. It is like in its mannerism. Secretive. Suspicious. She lifts the dark end to her mouth ( Read more... )

im officially moved out..
& officially unemployed.
pahh thats ahhh not good. :p

.. iiii think i just accidently said "goodbye." :/ ??
i will fix it.

i think i can truthfully say that its not working out anymore.. for the both of us that is. :/