I hurt myself still, mentally. I drink and then am honest with myself in depth of ways I dare not think true ( Read more... )

FUCK.
GOD DAMNIT TO HELL I'M A HORRENDOUS MISTAKE...

I...I don't know...

The reason you should not let a writer control a space with other people on it:
We're seductive with our words.
We'll try to win you, whether we know it or not.

The reason you should not let a Pansexual control a space with people on it:
We fall in love with certain personality ( Read more... )

Does it surprise you when I talk to you?

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Despite how life is right now, and how I felt earlier today...

I'm happy to be me. I'm happy with what I am, what I'm trying to do, that I'm Alive!
I may have no one, but I'll always have myself, and with myself and my own four paws I'll carry on.
I may have debts, but they can be cleared, and I will be free again.
I may have a shitty job...but I can ( Read more... )

I've not written here in a while, like I use to. But lately I've been depressed...I've been unhappy.

My revelations, ideas, thoughts all point out to my my obvious hurts. I can lick the wounds but they still ache. I don't know if this is some lasting effect from Krista, since she'd done as she had to me, or if it's all my own mind, slowly dropping ( Read more... )

Things have been a little on the crazy side. I'm trying to understand some things ( Read more... )

I don't know what to think about myself...I'm going up to visit her and the people I worked with on tuesday. I'm probably just getting myself hurt. Micah is gone though, she chased him out and was talking to me the whole time. Now she's being really friendly with me, and talking to me a few times a day. I think I ought to be worried, and have said ( Read more... )

Talked to Krista today, and am pleased as a Cheshire cat ( Read more... )

I've been seeing my friends again, which makes me happy. I was at Amber and Cora's until almost 4 am. (though I should have left hours before. -.-')  We saw How to Train Your Dragon. Nothing like the book much, but a wonderful, wonderful film! dawwwww! >.< so cute!

This made me happy in the face of Xena's death. Though loosing her was hard. She had ( Read more... )

I think the Dollar General is fucking with me. This Joan never called me. I don't have the number. She fed me a line and then left me to dry. So I'm going to go apply for other jobs like I should have done earlier. No one can live up the standards set by Becky anyway when it comes to a DG. then again, I would still hope for that in other places I ( Read more... )