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I feel Pretty
I feel pretty
Oh so pretty
I feel pretty and witty and gay!
And I pity
any girl who isn't me today!!!
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I'm not ready for this.
I don't like this feeling. It's not jealousy. I don't even know how to describe it. I am hurting. I do not feel you hear me. I do not feel you are understanding me. I do find it suspicious I am not invited. I find it suspicious that you can say and act as you do but I cannot.
I am not feeling it anymore.
I feel depressed, regret, like I am not ( Read more... ) -
Another Contradiction.
I like him. I desire him. I feel something for him. But I also love Natalie and I don't wish to hurt her. I know she said she won't be the one to break my wings and keep me with her. But still the action would hurt her. I know it would. I do want to have sex with men. I also want her to have sex with men. I also want to watch as she does. But still ( Read more... ) -
~{(@)}~Dreams
I mean come on what the fuck? I've been having some really serial killer like dreams lately. First I dream of death. Than I dream of life. They a peaceful no dreams at all for years. Now it's starting over again? This really needs to stop.
I don't want to dream about getting axed in the back while everyone else takes bribes or jus watches. All I ( Read more... ) -
Oddities
I keep having dreams about death and serial killers. :( -
The Cure- Love Song
Whenever I'm alone with you. You make me feel like I am home again.
Whenever I'm alone with you. You make me feel like I am whole again.
Whenever I'm alone with you. You make me feel like I am young again.
Whenever I'm alone with you. You make me feel like I am fun again.
However far away. I will always love you
However long I stay. I will always love ( Read more... ) -
Hole in my chest. Empty Soul. Blank is the mind. Zombified Personality.
I'm so glad I came home to an empty house. I have never fallen so hard. I don't even know how I got home. All I know is that I was so happy and I gave it up to be back where I was six years ago. I don't even know why I left. I miss her. I don't know what happened. I am a mess. When I was with her I actually felt something. Now all I feel is sadness ( Read more... ) -
Depressed Again.
Is there an end? Where was the beginning? I walk through doors so blindly I don't even know whats going on in my life anymore. I had it good. And I gave it away for something unfinished. My chest hurts. I cannot breathe. I need one but I had to give up the other who I still want. Dad says, "You can't always have what you want." I wonder what he ( Read more... ) -
My chest hurts cause I feel bad.
I took someone I wanted and tried to turn her into someone I needed. I feel bad for attempting to change someone who wasn't yet ready. But in the beginning I told her what I needed and that I was going to hurt her. She is a good person... She didn't deserve this. I still care about her. I still value her friendship... but does she mine?