i admitted that i love him. he's a great friend.

and my mom said he could move in if he needed a place to stay for free. don't know what he would do during the day, though. but it's all good cuz he moved out of the country again. i just hope he doesn't disappear once more.

"...i miss you so."

so, um, i'm going away for a few days. three, actually. leaving tomorrow afternoon to go to crossett... to go to my friend lee's prom with him. but i also get to enjoy my friend ian's company, and i love ian very much.

in other news, caleb.... :)    yay
so much more on that.... just later.

as for now, i have to go wash my hair and ( Read more... )

...i will never be with you

So, not too much has been going on here. I've been figuring out my future plans. That's going well. As for the past few weeks...
  I went to Veritas. That was really awesome. Met ALOT of great people. 
  I'm out of school for Spring Break. But I have to go back the 20th =(
     *ALSO* I am painting my room black and white on ( Read more... )

"...nervously saying words that oh-so-tightly fit"

well... yeah... we broke up. me and derick. yeah. it sucks that it ended so quickly, but that's okay, because neither of us were happy with our relationship. i've known this was coming for a while now. it's just another one of those things. maybe we'll be friends in the end of all of this. hm. i don ( Read more... )

"... something's missing. you forget where the heart is."
oh, and: "let her go - learn a lesson."
and, um: "waking up from this nightmare - how's your life? what's it like there? is it all that you want it to be? does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is?"

anyways. . . i'm still reading that James Frey book. it's pretty good. oh ( Read more... )

"... it's true."

i don't know what to say/write. my fingernails are gross.

i.bought.new.eyeliner::i.am.really.tired::i.don't.like.sickness::i'm.kind.of.sad::i.need.a.drink

the James Frey book is shaping up to be pretty -- um -- graphic. but i kind of like it. not because it's graphic, or anything. just, i don't know. it's written in an ( Read more... )

"... and it feels like independence day."

I guess I like Chopin the most. "Prelude No.4 in E minor, Op.28" -- erm... yeah, that's what it says on the little booklet thing.
[Note: Sarah, I was mistaken; Chopin wrote that thing we were talking about. Not Beethoven. I'm a failure.]
Anyways, I'm really liking all of this classical music. I finally ( Read more... )

I think I'm going to tell Derick some things that have been bother me. Not neccessarily about us, just things that have been on my mind. For example, things involving:

•  bruises
• screams
• users
• rape
• Ron

... and i feel completely different.

yeah... let me try this without bitching...

train of thought 5 minutes ago: i sound gay. gay. ick. ick. gay. gay. rainbow. rainbow. windows. windows. rain. rain. kissing. kissing. gay. ick. ridiculous. insane. NO I'M NOT GAY. ... *cough* erm, yeah. i'm a spaz. i don't know what heppened there. no, there are no ( Read more... )

"... tonight, they're burning the roads they've built to lead us to the light. and blinding our hearts with their shining lies while closing our caskets cold and tight, but i'm dying to live."

uh,  *nervous laugh*, hm. i don't know what to tell you. nothing's been going on. really suck ass weekend. friday night i went to helena;; went and watched a ( Read more... )