School is so stressful right now ( Read more... )

I finally figured out why I am always so sad. It took one special person in my life to admit to me that they had no idea who they were for it to click. I dont really know the REAL me. I know the Me that needs someone elses approval to feel special. I need someone to tell me that im beautiful for me to actually believe it. I am beautiful. And im ( Read more... )

Stop Cursing
Stop Biting my nails
Dont look for a relationship
BE POSITIVE :)
go to an audition
work out more
DONT SETTLE

and I wrote down all of the qualities that I want in a guy because I think this is year that I will find my prince charming :)

So, It is officially Christas Eve. Im sad. Again. I saw him last night, lets not even say his name..we will call him...asshole. He's avoiding me and I know it. We talked for like..2 minutes last night and we were both fucked up..what did that solve? NOTHING. I don't understand why im feeling like this. Why can't I be happy being alone? Im so ( Read more... )

Now that Im finally leaving, I think im really going to miss it here. I was so excited to go home, and now when I go home, I dont really know what I am going to do. I cant choose to live at one house, so I cant get a job, Caleb and I arent together so i wont be spending it with him, but somehow, its all going to be okay. I think this is going to be ( Read more... )

This too shall pass
and I will be left where I started.
Content and Alone.

It just hurts for a little while.

Right?

Im in a very happy mood today. christmas shopping makes me so cheerful. I have so much enjoyment buying things for other people. I remember I used to get so upset when I would buy something and get nothing. Not anymore. I just like making people happy. Thats a part of my character I guess...Please others before myself. Dont get me wrong, I do ( Read more... )

Why can't he just call ( Read more... )

My roomate must be on some serious medicaition because the last few days she has been someone i cant stand to be around. Shes touchy, bitchy, and has the biggest attitude about everything. I fucking live here too. I understand your sick but youve been sleeping for 2 days straight and I think ive been pretty damn respectful but enough is enough ( Read more... )

So today started day number 1 of the sixty day "HE-TOX". I sent him a last letter last night and he read it, although he didnt respond but thats quite alright. I don't need to hear anything from him. I said what I needed to say and I feel pretty good today. I woke up and for once, he wasnt the first thing that crossed my mind when I looked at my ( Read more... )