It's been a good month or so and I haven't heard from you. As terrible as that may sound, I am so much happier. For a week or two I hid my sadness, I do that quite often. I just couldn't stop thinking of how awful you treat me and how much more I deserve. You came home from the city already, I know you are home, and I don't care. I really don' ( Read more... )

Yesterday I spent about fifteen hours in the cold outside of Walmart. I was gaining donations to get the bikes for the kids, and it was a blast and strange at the same time. Most people were really nice and generous and we did reach our goal. While I was there, we got probably over a grand... which is crazy. I ran into some kids from school and ( Read more... )

I am basically done with my first semester in college. Wow, it's so strange to say that and believe it. I've met some pretty interesting people and even though the classes were hard, the professors I've had were all amazing. The one huge reason why I love my small school is that my teachers know me by first name and actually converse with me, I' ( Read more... )

My last classes were Thursday. It seems so weird that I am practically done with my first semester. I wrote my final paper for English and it was a complete joke. Finals are within the week and I am somewhat frightened and calm. I just don't care right now I want vacation ( Read more... )

My aunt has cancer again. Even though this is terrible news, I know she can pull through like she has before. Also, it actually causes my family to converse with one another and act like the care ( Read more... )

Vacation has been a blessing, in almost all cases. I have spent a lot of my days with Alex already, having her come to my house, going shopping, to the Elo show, to the play Mousetrap and just plain being there for me ( Read more... )

In two days I will be officially on Thanksgiving break. I don't believe it came so quickly and slowly at the same time. I can't wait to see Kevin, Kyle, Brooke, Michelle, Meredith, and everyone that left me. I want to have happiness surround me this winter, not leave me ( Read more... )

I will tell you about all the dreams I've had of us. About how many times I've waited for you in the rain. All the crazy and ridiculous things I've done to try to win you and lose you. And maybe we'll kiss. Maybe you'll love me. Maybe you'll hold me close like you have before.

And everything will be okay.

For awhile now I've stopped. Stopped caring, thinking, wishing, wanting. But the other day you told me you were in town and I stopped again, stopped breathing. I caught my breath and everything came back to me ( Read more... )

I am terrible at ignoring guys. Even when I am so totally angry with them, I can't help but give a slight look or sign of acknowledgment. I'm still mad though, at all of them. How hard is it to find what I am looking for? Patience is a virtue, but I mean I hate getting my hopes up for these worthless jerks I face day to day ( Read more... )