I don't want to be left behind..

and yet I fear that is what it will come to.

well practically 2 months later...im back. alot has happened..and then again not much has happened at all. well ill completely update later, i just wanted to write that im still here and gunna start up again!

BBBBBBBBBBLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! that how i feel. there not an emotion that can sum up how i feel. maybe its all the cough medicine drugs, but i just kinda feel alone but not really... ill like a guy and once he likes me too then i just kinda dont liek him anymore, weird huh? i just think i didnt kno what i wanted, i prolly ( Read more... )

i ache, im sick, and im feeling down! ive drifted away from kody so much. he doesnt care what i think bout what he is doing, but hey when he gets his ass in trouble he'll be crawling to me or something. i just wish things were like how they used to be with him, im worried bout him. but me ali courtney and kaia dont mean much to him anymore

im getting horrible bout updating.. opps my bad ( Read more... )

( song lyrics.. *sigh* )

i cant even explain the mood im in...im fine i really am, i have no reason to be upset, but im noty really upset but i just feel llike i need a good cry..really badly. if i knew what was bothering me id fix it in an instant. uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh...i think whats bothering me is myself ( Read more... )

wow im getting bad at updatin :-/ o well... so that saturday after the tornado me and kailey volunteered at 7 in the morning with roch, jayme, becki and adrianna. it was crazy the guys house was like half destroyed and his back yard was unreconizable..his van was picked up and thrown and his barn was a pile of lumber ( Read more... )

part of me still doesnt believe it happened..but it did. and its like nothing ive ever seen. seems like we're in some disaster movie and its all pretend, too surreal to even be true ( Read more... )

please tell me im dreaming! it just seems so surreal..like im in a movie.. im so fortunate