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[kissxxxxxxx0hhh]

i love rediscovering my favorite band. i haven't listened to bright eyes much since conor developed so much hype for being the typical 'sexy indie kid' that every indie girl is after. i started listening to bright eyes again though, recently, because, shit, bright eyes has been my favorite band for about ten years. fuck the fad induced frenzy

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[elanamoon]

hey. i'm really proud of you for staying clean. i know a bit about the feelings of addiction, obviously not of that magnitude, but you know. i know we're on the other side of the country, and far away and shit but if you ever need to, you can call anytime and talk for hours about all the shit in your head. that's what big sisters and brothers are for. i know that's not really the kind of thing you do, but the offer still stands, just in case.
i love you and i know you'll do really well in school. you're intelligent and unique and perceptive and you will do great things with your life.

[stretfordend]

i'm glad you're still alive

[kissxxxxxxx0hhh]

Dear past self,
I sincerely apologize for the way things went. I know that both you and I wish things had gone differently. I feel like all of the events directly following this entry caused a certain crisis that I have yet to recover from. The series of events that turned me into another person, one that made poor decisions. I wish you, I, would have done something about those manic and neurotic feelings before they led you, me, to single handedly destroy my own life. Two specific catastrophic events, being unfaithful and losing, or more accurately pushing away my significant other. That in itself, is unforgivable. Steven has long forgiven me, but ill never forgive myself. Ima finish this later I'm smoking a bowl.