Kristina--I am SOOOOOO sorry I didn't make it to your dance show! :-( I'm really sad about it. If you read my blog "catching up..." on myspace, you'll see why I missed it. Adam was REALLY sick last week. Then he got a little better. Then he got sick again with a cold. And then, since I was taking care of him, I then caught his cold. I was ( Read more... )

Since Adam proposed, I've been worried about deciding who was going to walk me down the isle... my mom or dad... and I knew I would pick my mom, but I dreaded the day I would have to tell my dad or when he would find out... I knew it would be hard... but now that he knows, it's worse than I thought. For those of you who don't know about the ( Read more... )

I wish I knew where my place was in life. I don't feel like I belong anywhere... not anywhere for a job, not with my friends anymore, and even not really with my family. The only place I truly know I belong is with Adam. It sounds so stupid, I know, but I feel like a guest in my own house & and outsider with all my friends. But I'm not going to ( Read more... )

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage
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Right now I just feel so insufficient and insignificant to so many people and in so many ways......... 

Why am I so damn stupid?!?! Why am I such a hated person?!!?! Why does everything come crashing down all at once?!?!?!?

Part Expert Kisser


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I'm about to go to bed but I just wanted to get something off my mind. I'm tired of feeling like the odd man out everywhere I live... my apartment and my house. Sometimes, I feel like my roommates are greatly looking forward to my departure... like I don't belong anymore, I'm just temporarily living with them for the next 2 weeks. I won't go ( Read more... )

I used to have the BEST bed in the whole world in my apartment! I loved it, it was so comfortable I could just sleep forever. I get home tonight and there's a new queen-size mattress and box spring just sitting on the floor where my bed used to be. No bed frame or anything, just laying on the ground. I tried to put my sheets back on but they ( Read more... )

I am so overwhelmed right now with everything!  Only 5 months and 22 days until me & Adam's wedding!  I went to look at flowers today... well silk flowers at this like silk flower warehouse place... and it was like omg I have no idea.  I have no idea what kind of flowers I want!  I have a general idea about bouquets... a very general idea, but as ( Read more... )