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What a fucking failure
Couple of fun [*heavy sarcasm*] things going on lately...
- My little sister recently got a big promotion or something. She's now the "Director of Education for Virginia Humanities" at VCU. $78,000 starting salary!!! Blargggg that really, really, really makes me feel like a huge fucking failure. I've never made that much in a year, except for the ( Read more... ) -
I can't do anything right :-(
So I was reading an article about Aaron Swartz and it made me think about my suicide attempt, and how I still try to show off a semi-carefree/worry-free attitude, despite kinda wanting to not be here all the time. That reminded me of some recent fuckups I've made, but since my memory is so shitty, I figured I guess I should write them down ( Read more... ) -
kidney stoneeee
Bleh, so I'm not working tonight, and I haven't worked since last Thursday (3/4/2021). I had a really bad stomach ache starting last Friday afternoon. It was so bad, I went to the VCU emergency room, where they did a CT scan & a blood test, and I had a kidney stone. They wanted me to spend 12 hours with observation & antibiotics, so I spent that ( Read more... ) -
jesus I'm fucking tired
Eugh, I'm not sure how much energy is related to financial status, but for me at least, I think I've noticed a correlation ( Read more... ) -
fuck changes - looking at you livejournal
Stop bugging me to try your new editor; I don't want it. I suck at learning how new things work, and I actually like being set in my ways for most of my preferences, so fuck off ( Read more... ) -
fml
Fuck my lifeeee, I don't know how I'm going to do anything in life now. I just spent the last hour or so looking at my old journal posts, most of which I don't remember writing, and I don't remember the events that I wrote about. And I think I saw a "fake" livejournal account that I had made, maybe for a short story or something? "Platonic_eidos ( Read more... ) -
pigevere again :-(
Awwww I just saw a picture I had of when I had spray painted white on Guinevere so she was a cute panda. I miss her so much :,( D'oh.
I'm so tired again >.< And just really really really sad. I think I loved Annie more, but I don't remember her as well as Guinevere, so it really really sucks. Happy Hall-Owen ( Read more... ) -
bleh
I don't know why, but I really miss Alex right now :-( >.< Which is kind of dumb, since he might have been a reason I tried to kill myself. Bleh. Maybe I saw a picture of him or something, but I miss him and his dumb, happy-go-lucky self.
I don't think my brain is ever going to be back at 100% >.< Eugh, I just watched an action movie and had a ( Read more... ) -
Guinevere
Guinevere died yesteray :,( She was so young, and I've had her since she was born. She was throwing up a bunch, and then she couldn't stand up, and I had noticed she had lost a lot of weight. We took her to the emergency vet, and she had internal bleeding, probably from tumors in her spleen, and they couldn't do anything. So she went to sleep ( Read more... ) -
latest hospital event (drugs)
Went into hospital may 23, 2015 after suicide attempt; was helicoptered to VCU. Was in a coma for 10 days; entered rehab unit on June 23 ( Read more... )