Wow, what a long time... Lots of stuff has happened, and I guess I've been putting off posting just because I didn't want to go through everything thats happened ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a long, long time. I keep putting it off over and over again... So much has happened since my last post. I was just looking over when the last post was, and re-reading it a bit... A lot has happened since then ( Read more... )

So I'm getting ready to go out tonight, just waiting for my friend Dustin to give me a call and pick me up. We're going to head over to the fraternity house and party it up a little bit. I don't think it will be that big, but I suppose it'll be good hanging out with my fraternity brothers a bit. I know I shouldn't drink, because of the drugs, ( Read more... )

So I get my neuropsychological test results tomorrow. I'm kind of excited, but I'm kind of nervous too. It's really odd. My thoughts are conflicting. I'd like to be just diagnosed as "Clinically Depressed" but on the other hand, I want to be diagnosed as something more, like Bipolar Type-2, or Borderline Personality Disorder, or something else ( Read more... )

Wow, I haven't posted in more than a week. Shame on me. Let me see if I can accurately recount the last week's occurances. Life has been pretty good; Effexor is working very well, and I have yet to have any suicidal idealisation. Well, I guess that wouldn't be completely true, but the important thing is that even if I have had suicidal thoughts ( Read more... )

Today was a fairly good day. I was in such a good mood all day today, that I wonder if the cutting had something to do with it. I think it did, which unfortunately bodes badly for me. Oh well, I tried calling my psychologist tonight, and didn't get a hold of her, so I cut a little more. I know it's a bad thing, but I'm just tired of arguing ( Read more... )

I forgot to eat today. I'm going to have dinner soon with the family, but I noticed that I haven't eaten anything today. Oh well ( Read more... )

What an interesting day. Well, I suppose I'll start by saying what I did after my last post, on Saturday. So I talked to Marshie, briefly, and then Andrea, an ex-girlfriend, IMs me about how she's sorry that she wouldn't let me apologize. So we talked a little bit on instant messenger; I would like to talk to her more because I really need help ( Read more... )

WHAT ARE THE SYMPTOMS OF A DISSOCIATIVE DISORDER ( Read more... )

How fucking annoying. I'm really fucking twitchy right now, and yet I'm tired and fatigued. What the fuck is the problem. And I just lay in bed, with a pillow over my eyes, and I can't do anything except analyze things as I'm twitching. I lie directly on my back, with my hands crossed at my mid-section, exactly as if I were in a coffin ( Read more... )