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Brain Health Registry
Signed up for this, which is under UCSF.
Now I'm going down a rabbit hole of my old depressed and suicidal posts. There's a section on depression history that got very specific, like how long was your first depressive episode? How long was the second, the third? And I was like, wait, what exactly is a depressive episode then? Because I was ( Read more... ) -
Damn, all my public posts are emo :(
Hello! I was once depressed af but am doing much better these days! ^^
Life is so different when you're not in a hole of depression. :)
Trying out this free stock photo feature:
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Passive Suicidal Ideation
https://theoutline.com/post/7267/living-with-passive-suicidal-ideation
I wish there was a nicer way to say this, but I don’t always want to be alive. Right now, I don’t actively want to kill myself - I don’t have a plan, I don’t check the majority ( Read more... ) -
It's my b-day but that's irrelevant to the post; I just need a title
Yesterday, Lio said they finally watched Endgame and the only good scene was...shit, I can't remember lol.
Anyway, I then commented that my favorite part was the scene with "Peter Parker and his father" lol and I was immediately hit with the realization that that's the kind of relationship I envision/wish for with my bro lmao. For a few months now ( Read more... ) -
I don't want to be here anymore
The road is cruel, it's true
I've been living life inside my head with no one to turn to
Now it's too late and I'm too far gone
Goodbye, I'm sorry, mom
Where did I go wrong?
This feeling won't leave me ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
Wow, it's been a while. A lot has happened.
Most significantly, the world has lost one of its greatest voices.
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I'm struggling to keep my head above the water
I just wrote that because it sounds ~poetic~. But the general feeling applies.
Material possessions keep me tethered to this earth. Also:
Things to look forward to:
- Dyeing my hair blue
- Movie screening
- Another movie screening
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Why I'm still alive
1. The Allegiance theater event is next Tuesday, Dec. 13.
2. I have to finish Yuri on Ice, the most impactful anime ever.
3. ONE OK ROCK will be in SF on Sunday, Jan. 22.
4. I paid $500 for this name. Even if I make it to 2018, that will have been only 5 years, which is still $100 per year. Need to lower that rate.
Edited to add:5. Senses Fail, SF ( Read more... ) -
This is a draft of my suicide note, I suppose.
I've thought about suicide a lot-many, many times-but I've never planned or attempted it. There are several things keeping me from doing so, including some trepidation and not wanting to leave a mess for people to deal with, but perhaps I'll discuss this later ( Read more... )
