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i'm back
OK so ive been gone a while, IM BACK, and ive never been happier ( Read more... ) -
FUCK thanksgiving
seriously, i hate these damn food holidays!!!!!
after tomorrow im taking so much lax and fasting!
fuck fuck fuck
and then im going on an organic veggie diet
i got some special k protein water packs too..5 grams of fiber and protein YEAH!!
uhmm yeah and i will be running or biking everyday
fuck being fat and eating
FUCKKKKKKKKK
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goals
well i am 111 today and i have been maintaining that for a few days
but its ok because i have been b/p at night, so whatever. and also i OD'd on sugar free candy which bloated me up like a balloon..never again! crazy..so i couldnt exercise cuz of the pain
im just happy i didnt gain!!
whatever, ill be 110 by monday morning for surrre -
progress
lost 7 pounds in 6 days
by running, restricting, b/p, and lax, hard work haha
i was 119 last wednesday. now its monday and i am 112
and i even binged and purged last night
but i guess the running and 1000 crunches made up for it
so my 1st goal weight of 110 will be here sooon
i ran about 1.7 miles today and walked to and from school which is about a ( Read more... ) -
HAHA
so i went to the kitchen and made oatmeal. and then felt guilty for wanting it. so i poured it down the sink. later i got hungry, and i repeated the same procedure ( Read more... ) -
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ahh i love running, i am going to start that back up again :)
today i ate apple(65) oatmeal(100) gum(65) sf candy(30) soup(60) popcorn(40) sooo thats 360 and i think i purged some of the apple and oatmeal so that number is kinda not accurate..
ran about 6 miles
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past few days
its been a b/p fest with fasting during the day. actually the day before yesterday i had 400 cals with lots of exercise but last nite i was just so pissed off that my cell phone got stolen, i started eating and didnt even care!! then i purged but once that cycle gets going its hard to stop =(
i need to control my emotions better..anyways i finally ( Read more... ) -
shit sucks
alright sooo i need extra curricular activities for college, even though im in 10th grade, colleges look at that too..so my dad is coaching the soccer team @ my HS prob and he wants me to join and ive pretty much done soccer all my life, the thing is, last year this is how my bulimia got soo bad. i would restrict, have no energy, play soccer, come ( Read more... ) -
welll
today i skipped school because i felt soo fat. probably cuz laxatives make me bloat up like a balloon, but still. and not knowing my exact weight makes me want to cry =( i need a new freakin scale already!! ugh well i know my waist is 24'' but thats it..ugh. and i wear a size 0 in USA sizes, but it still doesnt comfort me
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what.the.fuck.
ok i just made two sandwhiches with light MAYO!! i have never eaten that in my life, what the eff is wrong with my head? anyways. i just ate a lot. so i took laxatives. and im not going to school tomorrow. and so therefore i am "sick" and i am fasting.
hah.
wow im stupid.
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