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Looks like I figured out the cause of my stomach pains - hellooo period. Ugh. So I'm gonna be fat and bloated for the wedding.

I just went to mcdicks and got a diet coke. I needed something sweet.

I feel so massive today. Of course I fell asleep and missed my workout too. Not to mention my stomach hurts soo bad. gah.

Cals today: 
Apple w. cinnamon (70)
10 carrots (50)
grande iced coffee frap (110)
Smoothie (140)

= 370

So went a bit over my 300 limit for the day. I've decided I'm gonna do 200 tomorrow, 300 Friday, then I can have more on Saturday ( ( Read more... )

So discouraged today. Fuck it, I'm getting drunk tonight. 

Sometimes life is fucking AWESOME. My bank account was in the negatives, and I was wondering how I was going to afford to buy my anxiety pills, buy gas to go home for the wedding, or even buy a simple coffee at my job interview tomorrow. But I just kept thinking 'everything will work out', hellloooo positive thinking. I just got a call this morning ( Read more... )

actually went to the gym today, and did (almost) what I planned to. Weeoo ( Read more... )

efff I feel so weird today. I've been restless and lonely, and above all feeling FAT. Like ridiculously fat. Thank the lord I have no money to go buy food - but then a part of me is dying to binge. life blows ( Read more... )

Finally got my fat ass to the gym! I think I realized I can't just keep sitting around waiting for motivation, just gotta DO IT. Cliche no ( Read more... )

Day 4 of the ABC diet, although the first 3 days were a little wacky ( Read more... )

Well didn't eat at all today. Had some coffee this morn with sugar - prob about 40 cals. Otherwise just water. Definitely feeling better after all the shit I ate last night ( Read more... )