I'm glad to say that everything is completely fine right now. Which is excellent. Although, I am realizing how hard it is to have so many different friends. It's like a balancing act. I mean, I feel like if one weekend I don't hang out with one group of friends then we sort of grow apart until the next time we hang out and I don't like it... Oh, ( Read more... )

If I'm still weighed down with subtlties
then I'll just come out and say
that I think that I deserve him
more than anyone deserves anything
Maybe I am selfish, but there is no way to share this;
there's not enough to go around, I don't care who else gets hurt

Our refridgerator just stopped working. My parents are screaming at each other. My mom keeps calling my dad a bunch of names. This house does nothing but bring me down and I'm so sick of it. Someone's always in a bad mood and when they're upset everyone else has to be, too and I'm so tired of it. I thought of staying near home for college, but ( Read more... )

So, basically I've been way too stressed out lately. I was excited that I had more stuff to do this week, but I didn't realize my teachers were going to be assholes and give tons of homework to go along with it. Not to mention, I've been having really bad ideas lately... for instance, this morning I was like oh I'll just sleep another 5 minutes... ( Read more... )

I feel much beter now. Things got terribly worse this morning, but I suppose things have to get worse before they get better. Yeah. And I'm pertty much over you, but BUT BUT BUT, seeing your face still makes my heart skip a beat and my stomach flip. Ewewewewewew. AND I can't work on my layout tonight because I'm going to Brittini's to make our ( Read more... )

I feel really empty right now... and exhausted. AND GUESS WHAT?! It's 12 AM and I still have to read two chapters in my book and write 5 Q&A on each. THEN I have to take a shower, brush my teeth, and hopefully after all that I'll be able to get some sleep, but I doubt it because I have a lot of stuff on my mind right now. Like, for instance, I ( Read more... )

I need a new layout. Hopefully I'll have time to do it tonight... I have a busy schedule these next couple of days :]

Today I have to go to dance and then right after that I have to go to the chorus concert to see Cortney's solo!! :] Then tomorrow I'm making shirts with Brittini and Julie :] Yess welll. I'll have a new layout soon, I'm sure.

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this weekend was pretty great. i hung out with a bunch of different people. saturday i went to tori's christmas party and it was great seeing all my old friends again. i got to talk with a lot of people and we bonded and it was great. then julie and i went out with cody. we decided to get rick and then go over to john's house because they were ( Read more... )

So, I pretty much suck at friendships. I have a huge problem balancing things out and prioritizing. I don't see how some people do it. I feel bad saying no to people and for some reason I get it in my head that my crazy plans might work. They don't. Then people get upset. I feel bad. ERELKJFOSIJ. No matter how bad it seems, I really didn't mean to ( Read more... )