i really need to keep my thoughts together. i seem to have let my emotions get control of decisions i've made recently.  i know what the right things to say and do are, but i've decided to get out on a limb and make a fool of myself. for example, i went back over to the house i just moved out of and got pissed off.  there's no way that flipping ( Read more... )

its my birthday, and i had to wake up for work at 445 a.m. i just got off about fifteen minutes ago, and i have to go to AA at 545 until 9 pm. i guess work wasn't so bad, a lot of customers of mine gave me free soda, and one gave me a sandwich.. plus i just updated my ipod and i totally listened to music and dane cook all day. he's friggin ( Read more... )

i don't know what i should do, i'm caught up.  i really have started feeling lonely, and its not because i don't get enough conversation, i'm living with my parents again, and its like they want to make up for the past two years. they're hanging around right now trying to read my fucking journal. if i don't post it to you, i don't necessarily want ( Read more... )

 being sober isn't so hard. i think the worst part is having to spend time talking about how i have "a serious problem" when i know that i can quit on my own. i have quit.  the only difference is that i'm an on and off abuser, ha. i was sober for all of 2005, but jumped back into it when annie left me for meth. i felt it was a legitimate reason, ( Read more... )

 being sober isn't so hard. i think the worst part is having to spend time talking about how i have "a serious problem" when i know that i can quit on my own. i have quit.  the only difference is that i'm an on and off abuser, ha. i was sober for all of 2005, but jumped back into it when annie left me for meth. i felt it was a legitimate reason, ( Read more... )

 so i've been totally sober for two weeks, and the only thing i've noticed about myself is the fact that i'm highly irritable.  In fact, this has prolly been one of the worst weeks ever.  When i got the DUI my work changed my job title from driver, to drive instructor, since my licence is suspended. i've been training new beer guys... this most ( Read more... )

 ha, so the irony.  i honestly Don't drive drunk.  however i had a couple drinks in a few hours on sunday night.  it was my best friends wife's birthday jeez... anyway, i got home safely.... pulled into my driveway, and got arrested for DUI. I blew a .11 ( Read more... )

i never had a problem with drinking until living in my current residence.  the past year has been terrible to my liver. i never had blacked out before living in such an animal house, now, seriously  i can't remember half the shit i do when i'm drunk.

i was so hung over today at work that at my first account, the owner of the store gave me a couple ( Read more... )

been awhile, journal.  for memories sake; since being fired from taboo i took the summer off with unemployment and under the table jobs, i finally decided to move on and got a job at stein dist. (hired on 6-6-06) i've been doin that and just travelling since..

my old man had a serious surgery last december, and i've been spending quality time with ( Read more... )

my tv that was stolen from my house last month, was really the property of rent-a-center.. so when i informed them of the situation, they were already prepared. half of their business is insurance against loss and i had paid for theft insurance for my set-up ( Read more... )