being the scapegoat for someone's anger ( Read more... )

not in any particular order ( Read more... )

my family ( Read more... )

today William made me so happy! he was just all smiles today - he is really verbalizing and learning to communicate! today, he looked at me, smiled, stuck out his tounge a couple of times, smiled again, and I just KNEW he wanted to breastfeed, so I did and he was so calm and happy! what a smart guy! I look at him and think he is just the smartest, ( Read more... )

today I took care of william from start to finish today. we slept in til about a quarter to 9, I unhooked him, changed his diaper, took him upstairs, settled him in, brought up the IV pole, reconnected him, gave him his 9am medicines and played with him in the morning. when he started to get fussy, I gave him his bottle at 10:30, he napped after ( Read more... )

last night I was able to go out and hang out with my friends to celebrate the imending nuptuals also known as the bachelorette party. dinner was great. we went to Lulu's and had really good food, though it did not sit as well wiht me this morning. it was sooooooooooooo nice to see everyone and let loose and just enjoy myself. it was the first time ( Read more... )

today was good - Will had his doctor appt and it went really well. he's made incredible strides these last few weeks and the doc noticed - he said his eyes improved, his coordination improved, and that he was on track for two months and in some areas as high as four months. in a couple days, william will be three months adjusted, 7 months actual, ( Read more... )

if my husband tries to make me feel bad about being obsessive about germs, its not going to happen. today his family is over and mason is freaking out because I told them to wash their hands before touchign William. fuck him. he says that he does not want him to get a cold, but he sure is lax about people washing their hands before touching him. ( Read more... )

it's only 9 in the morning and I am already exhausted. i am being mean to the cats and I've left my son with the nurse to escape. today while I was holding him I got so angry at the nurse - I mean, she seems not to know basic things and it really pisses me off. i mean, what the hell! she's a nurse! i've decided I am only trusting her as a baby ( Read more... )

a lot has happened since I posted last - to recap - mason and I stayed together, bonded by the strength of our love for our son, William, who was born 4 months early in February of this year. He just came home from the hospital three weeks ago and we've been adjusting to home life with a baby ever since. it hasn't been easy ( Read more... )