By the time I got to Children's again, Dr. Iduwu, the surgeon, had already looked at the contrast studies and determined that William did indeed have an intestinal blockage and would need surgery ASAP to clear it up. I was in shock and quite upset - I started crying right in front of everyone. I said to the dr (becasue I was the only one there - ( Read more... )

ah John Muir - to compare to CHO - JM is like a French restaurant and CHO is like Nascar. JM has better linens, quiter environment, few tables, and fewer waiters. CHO is loud, bustling, and there are about a thousand people there any given day. However, they each have their niche, and thankfully they are both there when needed ( Read more... )

Today was the day I was discharged from John Muir. We had to make two trips with all the flowers we recieved. Vera drove home my car and Jim took us home in the saab. I still couldn't lift my leg up to get into the CRV, so having the Saab was a great thing. Some people said it was hard leaving their child in the hospital when they were discharged. ( Read more... )

William was transported via ambulence to CHO on that Monday. he was watched for a couple of days because the echo cardiograms they did did not show the patent ductus. but clinically, he was showing signs of distress. This was the first time we met Dr. Michas, who in my opinion, really seemed to personalize his care of William and was there during ( Read more... )

Mason had to drag me to see William the day after he was born. I was just too depressed and sad that William had been born so early, and I was so worried about his future. The morphine was still wearing off throughout the night and I still felt pregnant. I had ghost kicks and movements in my belly, and I woke up crying because I knew that it was a ( Read more... )

William Atticus Foster Was Born! - Wednesday, February 23, 2005 ( Read more... )

so we had our first real counseling session on Monday and I think it went well. both good and shitty things were said, but overall I think it was positive. I just wish mason would start acting like normal again. Even Joey thought he might be over-reacting - what does that tell you? I never thought I would think that joey had his act straighter than ( Read more... )

i am about to go christmas shopping and I have to say - not really in the xmas mood. mason's bday is on wednesday and I don't feel like getting him a bday present either. i was thinking this morning that I am really feeling stupid for ever falling for him because I feel like he has lied to me from the begining. I can't believe that I am going ( Read more... )

oh, and I decided I way over reacted about maason' smom's reaction a few days ago. I love her and his family and I would NEVER use my child against them. this will be their first grandchild and even if the dad is a flake, the family won't be. I can't deny my child his/her heritage and whole family - especially considering how important family and ( Read more... )

today is a better day than when I last posted. I feel stronger and more confident, and know that whatever road this takes me on, I am ready to handle it. I am not sure what is going on with my husband, but I have decided that I will ride this out, and make sure everything is done so that things get better ( Read more... )