i feel rather okay right now. i thought i was going to have a mental breakdown yesterday. i was just crying so much.. i started crying alittle bit when i was talking to my mom about how stressful school is for me and how i feel so stupid. then alittle later i just starte bawling. i went downstairs and my eyes were all puffy and my parents kept ( Read more... )

i really need someone to talk to.. but i don't have anyone because NO ONE fucking cares. i've been trying to fight the tears but i just can't anymore. I WANT TO DIE. i seriously wish i would. i hope i get ran over by a car or i get struck by lightning.. or something. i'm just so sick of trying. i have nothing to live for. no one remotely ( Read more... )

i really hate this.. i'm starting to feel very lonely again. i feel that no one cares. i haven't felt like this since july and i just wish it would stop. so many mixed emotions are running through my head and i just don't know what to think anymore. i'm so confused about so many things. things i really don't want to talk about right now because it' ( Read more... )

i'm always so cold ( Read more... )

today was not that good of a day ( Read more... )

look at my mood. WOW could it be that i'm actually chipper for once?! i think i've forgotten what happiness is.. so i'm not sure if this is real happiness or just an illusion. it just seems as though whenever everything seems right in my life it suddenly goes down hill. i just hope this is real ( Read more... )

i'm so thirsty and and hungry. rawr i'm such a heffer. lol =x ( Read more... )

this is going to be a quickie because i got a stupid report to finish and i'm still hungry. rawr ( Read more... )

school this week has been shockingly not so bad. i actually didn't feel like stabbing myself with a fork to put me out of my misery. but hey, it's only tuesday ( Read more... )

i got my ears double pierced today and they look really cute. they kind of hurt though. i also got a coat that's corduroy and it came with a hat and scarf. it was $80 so it was kind of expensive. worth it though ( Read more... )