"faith is taking the first step, even if you don't see the full staircase." -martin luther king jr.

on the oh-so-frequently-visited pessimistic side.. it's really disappointing when you put faith into someone and they disappoint you. you simply allow yourself to believe that he/she cannot and will not hurt you or the people you love and you choose ( Read more... )

it's been a while since i last updated and the only excuse i can think of is the fact that i've been too busy to care or think too much. i'm livin' my life busy and free of all cares.. 'cause right now, that's exactly what i need.

i pretty much drive myself insane wanting you and thinking of you. it's really not fair this power you have over my emotions. i wish that you wanted me as much as i wanted you. i wish we wanted each other and could be together. i wish i never felt any of this pain because you felt the same way i do and then we would be together. i wish nobody else ( Read more... )

i feel like blogging, not sure where to start or what i wanna say, but i'll type as i go. i guess today's topic of discussion is jealousy. it seems like all day today i was feeling the evil stab of jealousy every minute. it's like he goes out of his way to avoid me sometimes and it hurts, i can't even lie. sometimes i wish i could avoid seeing him ( Read more... )

it seems to never fade or go away. i feel it every minute of everyday. even hearing "he said hi" isn't enough. i want you. i want you......

how come when i'm happy, time flies; but when i'm lonely and in pain, nothing can make time go by any faster. i feel like i've been stuck in this same depressive and lonely rut for a while now, and in that same time, i feel like time has passed so quickly. basically, what i'm trying to say is.. i want you, and that's that. i miss you, i miss what ( Read more... )

i'm the kind of person who is a strong believer in giving people second, third, and fourth chances. i believe that when shit goes down, people have the ability to change and they deserve the benefit of the doubt if they seem genuine about it. it sucks when you give and give people opportunities to redeem themselves and they repeatedly prove ( Read more... )

all good things come to an end. sucks shit, but it does. when i got home all i wanted to do was blog about this bullshit. now i don't give a shit. you're not worth the fucking time. fuck you. just fuck you.

i guess i was right when i said that everybody changes after the new year, whether they plan to or not. i'm beyond happy that you said what you said. let's keep this going, cool?

i'm not sure of what i see... cupid, don't fuck with me.

you didn't call, i wasn't you. every cell in my body hoped it was, even if it was just an accident.. but it wasn't, and i'm pathetic. on another note, you were pretty cool today. i won't get my hopes up though, i have a bet that says you'll be back to normal tomorrow. fuck you.