hello all..ugh i dunt even feel like writing in dis hsyt anymore!!not anythign interestin enuff happens fo me to actually write....its been agood summer so far...ive met awesum new ppl..i am now OBSESSED wit myspace..i guess dat why i havent written in such a long time....oh an di swear to god im in love ( Read more... )

whoa! i havent updated in a long time..well nothing much has happened.krystle's party was on friday. me and ari went to dat becuz are friends think dey are too cool so dey went to sunset.it was cool. we both kinda split up at da party and met new ppl.ari met dis guy..doesnt she always?. i met my new homegirl, laura. she's real tight, shes fukin ( Read more... )

Dear Friend ( Read more... )

I don't want to be lonely no more ( Read more... )

i feel like shyt
god y must ppl lie
dont they kno it juss makes shyt worse?..
u kno..i woodnt be so mad if i had juss known the tru before..
the lies..thats wut makes me mad..
w/e..theres better for me out there..
ryte..then y do i feel like i cant do better?

ugh...i cant wait until therapy tomorrow...i need it..

aileen, prepare urself

bye

today my therapist said...
and i qoute

"if u dont think ur beautiful then how do u expect other ppl to see you that way?.you dont want to be with sumone who doesn think ur beautiful..right?..."

i get wut she means
but i just dont feel it
i feel that i woud be lying to myself
and think im sumthing im not

hmmm..i dunno

sumthing to think about

yay!!! i had the best day at work yesterday ( Read more... )

i hafta work all three days of the weekend ( Read more... )

finally.. im at peace ( Read more... )

i havent slept in two days...all i do is lay there and stare up at my fan as flashbacks of me and him together run thru my mind. i remember everything perfectly down to the last detail. its weird tho..with javi ..we were together for 5 months and i could never remember our anniversary.i cant get him out of my head and i wish i could go bak in time ( Read more... )