Gonna hang out with Audra! :O)

I told Peter today that since he told me to find someone else he has to fix my heart every time it gets broken or starts to hurt. I didn't mean to make him cry. I didn't mean to hurt him. I only wanted him to understand what he has told me to do. Even when I start to like someone new it hurts, its hard, and scary as hell ( Read more... )

When I grow up I want to be a hermit.

traci went to prom tonight. When Rachel told me that I froze ( Read more... )

Patrick completely suprised me by buying me a VERY nice wine bottle opener this weekend. I'm taking this as a sign. I should stop waiting and go ahead and purchase the wine bottle storage tower that matches my coffee table set.

Its been such a long day.  (Only had 2 and 1/2 hrs of sleep then a quick 45
min nap due to world religions hw that wasn't completed after 3 days
of serious studying..)   I am exhausted from work, school, family fights about
terminal illness, and the anniversary of a friend's death.

My day began with an unplesant phone call around 5am and by 5: ( Read more... )

"Soon our lives will revolve around marriage, careers, and rehab" ~three kings ( Read more... )

Tommorow night I'm gonna light the fire place :O)

Wednesday, January 04, 2006 ( Read more... )

I hurt so badly right now and I can't talk to the person who's standing right in front of me trying to make a genuine effort to speak to me.

I'm freaking out so badly, feel like the walls are closing in on me and I can't leave b/c if I do I will have lost this battle with myself.

I hate myself and everything around me right now....