~sighs~

"black roses and hail marys cant bring back whats been taken from me"

Candle light vigil 2300 Westiemer 23:00. (11pm)

I want to run. Maybe it won't really come tommorow. Maybe if I try really hard it won't hurt and tear me apart. Yea right who am I kiding?

"And I'm sick of my sickness
Dont touch me, you'll get this.
I'm useless, lazy, perverted,
and you hate me.

You can't save me,
You can't change me,
Well I'm waiting for my wake up call,
And everything, everything's my fault.

Went to the doctor, and I asked her,
to make this stop.(whoa)
Got medication, a new addiction,
Fucken thanks a lot!"

~"Save Me" ` ( Read more... )

Its been a rough day but its picking up.

Spoke with Jen, man its been awhile.

Hung out with a sales person who came to my door earlier. She was awesome.

Now I'm going to meet Rach and my mommy for awhile. Prob going to deeds too.

Yesterday - worked, helped mom clean out her burned up freezer, and cleaned Kat & Crystal’s house for $100.

Today - worked, mike came to work and spent most of the day w/ rach, we all hung out at my house watching “Falling From Grace” and decorating the upper half of the Christmas tree (Leia and Ariel will eat the bottom half).

I just wrote Peter ( Read more... )

My house was broken into Tuesday night ( Read more... )

Starting to feel like a person again.

I was approved for up to $500 credittimit @ lenscrafters so I can now buy replacement glasses.

I finally got my last ticket resolved today (it was a pain in the ass to get it signed off on).

I FINALLY got my printer and its drivers to cooperate!!!!!  (Its been over a week since I started tinkering with it)  ( Read more... )

Dave commited suicide.

Barbie is going to have a girl.

I got a new lap top.

Ryan got married today, I couldn't bring myself to go.

I'm sad and still some what in shock.  I'm stumbling and lost.  I'm angry.  I promised them I'd NEVER consider suicide again.  Rach and I fell apart at work today.  I've cried so much I didn't even care that ( Read more... )

Mikey went in for heart surgery last night. I've been up most of the night. If the weather hadn't been stormy I would have riden with Adrienne to Lubbouck. I'm so worried about him and his family ( Read more... )

So I haven't written in a while ( Read more... )