things are wondeful again. im still not happy that i cannot find a way to repay him for all the things that hes done for me, but i totally believe that one day a good idea will pop into my head. he makes me feel like im worth $50,000,000,000. the way that he looks at me.. the way that he touches me. i cant even begin to describe it. i hope it stays ( Read more... )

so im not exactly sure what my problem is these days. im being a bitch to the one person who i love and who seems like the only person who TRUELY cares about me and im pushing him away. im making him feel like he shouldnt even try to be with me anymore. roger is by far the best thing thats ever happened to me and im just throwing everything out the ( Read more... )

i feel lost. i only got to see and talk to him for like five minutes today and i was in a hurry and we were at work so it wasnt great at all.. and we didnt taslk or see each other last night either. i asked him to call me when he got off work tonight but he didnt. im so upset. i just want to hear his voice. i know he didnt call probably because he ( Read more... )

why do i feel like im not good enough for him? i know i mean the world to him and i know he thinks im just right for him but hes way too good to me. everyone tells me i finally deserve a good guy, which i agree is true but like.. hes too good. and i STILL get upset over the little things. like he doesnt deserve it at all. i wish i could fix this. ( Read more... )

i went to camielle's last night with andre. i miss them so much. saw nick and peewee and josh. it was so nice. i was about to kill josh's girlfriend though. shes aggervating. had lots of nice talks with camielle though. josh leaves monday for five years. its so sad how me and him have grown so far apart. hes the friend i miss the most but yeah.. ( Read more... )

my wonderful boyfriend suprised me thursday and came home for the weekend. it was one of the best things he couldve ever done for me. him not being here is the hardest thing for me.. especially right now. he got me sick. i feel like crap.. like really horrible. this morning i couldnt even move. oh well.. ill get better. only 9 or 10 more days til ( Read more... )

omg rOGER CAME HOMEW@! its only for four days but omgg! then hes goottta go back monday but yeah im SO EXICTEED IM SO HAPpy! hes so awesome. he drove all the way from georgia. i love him

roger is gone. it sucks big time. like i feel so lost. thats sad but i really just dont know what to do with myself. like i knew id be upset and stuff and lonely but wow. it kinda scares me. im glad we get to talk though. hes so wonderful. im so glad i found him. i just wish i could do something to show him how much i love and care about him. he ( Read more... )

yeah well thursday is coming alot faster than i expected. it sucks that hes gonna be gone for three weeks but oh well. i know ill live. its just gonna be so weird without him right here all the time. like his arms wont be around me when im sleeping, his face wont be the first thing i see when i wake up. i wont get to kiss him or hold his hand. ( Read more... )

i dont even know what to do anymore. im so confused about everything. i almost made the biggest mistake of my life on sunday. i didnt want to even say those words to him but it was the only way i could think of that would solve the problem. i dont want to lose him at all but i just dont know what else to do. its times like this when i just want to ( Read more... )