i miss my friends. my REAL friends. i miss how it was. today has been so depressing, mainly because i thought it was going to make me feel better. i thought i was going to get to spend the day with one of those real friends, and talk and catch up, but i ended up sitting at home alone. belkfsedjsm. god i hate it. you know that feeling you get, that ( Read more... )

well today was nothing short of horrific. i cant think. i feel like for the past couple weeks i've been sleeping through school. i havent learned anything. at all. i had FIVE tests today. im sure i failed 3. and trust me, im not one of those good lil smart kids who are like "o god i think i'm gunna fail cuz i only got to study for 2 hrs instead of ( Read more... )

yes ladies and gentlemen, she lives! lol yeah i know its been forfuckinever since ive put up a post. i figured id write what on my mind tho, since this is a journal and all ( Read more... )

wow. its been like forever. well im sitting at home sulking because i suck at making cookies. you see, i attempted to bake them for my dad, i even looked up the TOLL HOUSE RECIPE online and printed the bitch out. i followd the directions to a mutha fuckin T and what do i get? shit cookies!! they suck balllls. plus i get a disturbing call at 11:30 ( Read more... )

gosh im mad at him. maybe im over reacting..? maybe its just me. but me personally, im not ok with my boyfriend of 5 months calling another little slut babe. id be totally cool with it if it werent for his past stupidity with the same girl. and i got mad then. and told him never do it angain. and he promised. but he did it again. i HATE it when ( Read more... )

god i wish there was a national crying competition. im damn good at it. anything can make me cry. say one little thing that has anything to do with hurting and the thought "god i miss him. he always made things ok" flashes through my head as tears come on command. up till very recently i thought i was the only one in the world who hurt that bad ( Read more... )

mutha fucka. dont you hate when you have like half a page of an entry and press a few keys on the kwyboard by accident and it goes to the home page and your entry is gone forever. mmhmm just happened. damnit. anywho, im sad. well you see, im driving (with mollie) to austin(5hrs) today to go get my sister. which im excited about cuz i heart her and ( Read more... )

lie lie lie lie mutha fuckin lie. wtf

well well. if i dont update in weeks, or cant do anything for a little while its because i was stupid and totally didnt think to call my mom all day. i was sposed to go to church up in houston, then get dropped off at home at like 1. well, we ended up goin to church in galveston, then not having a car for me to get dropped off, till like 6. and ( Read more... )

hey hey everyone. well i guess ill freakin update damnit. today was....um...ok i guess. my mom is really sick though so it kinda has sucked since lunch. after school i went with trevor to hangout at his friend tim's house. it was cool. we played poker. i lost but it was fun i guess. my throat has been hurting horribly since last night. =/ tomorrow ( Read more... )