the first time i've cried in a long time.

im always good enough to sleep with.
never good enough to be with.

I'm here alone.

And it's scary.

Talking about my life in this thing.

Now it has become obvious what I have been writing about to some people and I don't know if they give enough of a shit about me not to tell other people and totally fuck everything up for me.

YUCK.

This has been asked of me several times now by several different people:

The most recent of my journal entries are NOT about Jeff Montez.
We've never slept together.
Or anything else for that matter.

Just wanted to clear things up so people don't assume I'm doing something I'm not and hate me for it. : ]

I am going to be there, BUT, for those of you who don't know I take care of retarded people. I will be taking my girls there seeing as I am on shift that night. If you want to come talk to me when you see me you can, but PLEASE do not do it if you are one of those people who are scared of retarded people because they WILL try to talk to you ( Read more... )

Do not read my Livejournal and then tell other people what is in it, or you WILL be deleted. KThnxBye.

So let's see, I went to see MSI last night, it was a 10 hour drive all together, but totally worth it. It was Me, Maloree, Patrick, and some girl named Susie. It was really cool. At one point he was on the floor standing right in front of Mal, I am such a loser, I got so excited. He took a picture of his dick and threw the camera into the crowd. ( Read more... )

nothing of importance ( Read more... )

It figures that I would probably be completley wrong to think that someone might actually like me without wanting to use me. I'm not quite sure what I was thinking. I should have known my luck wouldn't really get that much better. Also, I hate luck. It's for suckers. I am down on myself. Well, yes I am. I have plenty of reasons to be. Anyone would ( Read more... )

Last night I prayed for a little relief from the constant sickness in my stomach- caused by my nerves being crunched up. I actually did feel a little better last night. I have to drag myself out of bed every morning and try to convince myself that there is something worth waking up for. I am trying to just stay away from Cory. This will be the ( Read more... )