so. so.

i miss you. how have you been?

 
you are bigger and braver and better
i just put on this front
im scared and small and sad
im a twisted and broken thing

you make me feel special
you make me feel like something after all

you make the sun come out. everyday

 hes leaving... and i get pangs of sadness...

but the pangs only interupt the euphoria for a moment...

IM COMING HOME TO YOU!

i was a horrible bitch last night to someone who didnt deserve it.
who was actually decent and trying to be my friend
just because he had an accent that reminded me of the ocean i didnt cross, and the dreams i never tried, and the fact that i had almost gone

almost.

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 i love you i love you i love you

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i love you

 i am convinced now, more than ever, that we must end this unholy war.

more to come

(to my love)
     lets use our undeniable charm and charisma to do something good.

im feeling braver now.

or rather, 
                                                    Im terrified of what the future will be like if someone doesnt do something now.

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 so daniel was talking to jonathon about leaving and stuff and jonathon was like, what are you gonna do while hes gone? and i was like, o i thought id go home ya know, see my friends got some things to do

and daniel says

gotta go back to omaha and drink

in this voice that was like dead serious

and i was like haha yeah whatev.

and he was like

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i miss you. every freakin day

sometimes, when its all to much, i cry 
and daniel looks at me with a crushed look that honestly almost makes it worse, because he knows he cant fix this.

and i get angry and i scream

and screaming is the closest i get to feeling real, and feeling you

i miss you, 
every freaking day

this is it, the truly great thing, the love youve hoped to find. Any doubt will simply wipe itself out, to rising deeper the first and last time.

trying to figure out what i deserve.

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 beauty beauty everything is beautiful
and i feel like i dont compare.  on days when the sky is so gray i cant see any reason to forgive anyone. least of all myself. 
i still blame myself for everything. i want to lie down and breathe in the earth and forget everything. forget that night and forget him and forget that i chose this.

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