things i need to learn:

how to chill the fuck out. 

 my ribs feel like they're going to snap. 
thank you, scoliosis. i hope my lungs don't get punctured. this is seriously uncomfortable/painful.

ugh. 

 listening to bon iver while i study because the reading room suddenly became a chat zone a few hours ago. i think its better now but eh.

i love this artist, the songs are acoustic and lonely and lovely with hints of autotune that make it unique. but it makes me feel sad listening to them, like its hopeless but i'm still hopeful.

i really do like ( Read more... )

well its hard to to change the way you lose
if you think you've never won

in the end nothing stays the same
and in the end the dreams just scatter and fall like rain.
cause all we are, we are

boston moonrise a few weeks ago: http://apod.nasa.gov/apod/ap110324.html

 butt is being kicked so majorly by this essay. i want to drop the course. fml fml fml WHY? NEVER AGAIN. all of you, if you hear of me wanting to take another class with my favourite psych teacher EVER AGAIN tell me to STOP. easy classes from now (with exception of requirements), i don't even give a shit, i just want to graduate. i have done my ( Read more... )

 why do i DO this to myself? 
i have absolutely no cognitive ability to write this essay.

 do you want to see it?
the place where i am free
cause in my mind i've been there
and theres no one here but me. 

 in class today, vervaeke was talking about perspective taking and how we create ourselves by taking the perspective of others and choosing to some extent which ones to incorporate. and he said that sometimes, we internalize these perspectives and resonate with them so much that the person actually becomes a part of who we are - and that maybe that ( Read more... )

 i suppose its better that i just dont know