I worked today and the mall was so busy so im kinda tired. Ive been so happy latly! Martin emailed me! and im just waiting to hear back from him. I dont think ive ever been so nerivos around a guy my whole life. Its weird and I dont understand it. Im finally out of driving school and back to youth group. I wasnt going to go but I prayed about it ( Read more... )

Today was a kinda normal day except for my additude! I finally realize Im not being myself. I take how everyone else wants me to be and I make it me. Ive done it so long Im not even sure who i am anymore. Ever since campus life i have changed but im not sure if it was for the good or not. I just am so confused and soooo mad at SOMEONE! some of my ( Read more... )

Please if you havent, please post on my last journal! I just wanted to talk about a few things im going to try to work on myself with. I need more comments so I know what to change, so if anything just write, but anyway here are some things im going to change. first I want to change my negitivity about myself but without being stuck up. I need to ( Read more... )

I know im probley going to get alot of bad posts but i dont care. Please anwser the few questions below. Please only use anounimous option and please answer the questions honestly. I dont care only if you are being honest. Thank you if you do this for me and try to get as many people who know me to do it, thanks again! Crystal ( Read more... )

Friday was a turn around for me, I dont know what it was but I just know what I need to do. Maybe it was finally talking one on one with Martin or maybe something else. I hope Martin likes me because I really like him. I wont see him until March 18, :( but I cant wait... It's exacly 33 days away... It stinks its so far away. Martin is so kool and ( Read more... )

Everything is getting better or at least today. Im in a good mood for once and I finally am writing my book. Its going to be great, you people have got to read it.Anyway I got payed today and we finally got snow. I got a computer now and Im working on getting the internet. Im about to go to campus so I dont know what else to write. The guy I like ( Read more... )

I thought life was getting better but so far its not. Ok i dont feel like rambling on and on so I will leave it as this. I wrote this poem last night ( Read more... )

Tonight is the Campus Life Christmas party. I got my camcorder so I can tape the fun. I cant wait to see everyone. And my birthday is tomarrow the only thing that sucks is Ill only get a 20 min break instead of 30min. And I really cant wait for sunday. Well I still got a while left so Im going to check my email ( Read more... )

Its ok that no one writes me anymore. Or even calls me anymore. This is a place I can speak my mind and express myself. well It was so busy at work today. I finally got the book I was looking for, for the longest time. Its call Rachel's Tears its an incredible book. And of course it is I Never Read and im reading it none stop. Its a true story ( Read more... )

I dont understand somethings and it drives me up the wall. When I was at church Sunday my pastor read something some guy wrote. It made me relize alot. So I'm just going to write how I feel just maybe It will help. Well first off school life, well like everyone knows I graduated last year and Im not in college. I all ready got off to a bad start. I ( Read more... )