And so the world begins to fall apart, piece by piece.

A long time ago I inadvertently planted a seed of darkness into my heart. Nourished by the thoughts and emotions of the same affinity inside of me, it takes root and grows and grows. I can cut it down, but I find that I am unable to destroy the seed. It remains in my heart, resprouting and sending shoots and roots. It keeps growing and growing and ( Read more... )

I'm lost in the darkness and I can't find my way out.

到了最後還不是一人

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Recently a series of events forced me to reevaluate my life, my priorities, and turned my world upside down. As they say, just when you think you hit rock bottom, somebody tosses you a shovel. But I guess that's how life works. Adversity is suppose to make you stronger, but I feel myself getting weaker day by day. I can't determine which path to ( Read more... )

The darkness seems to grow by leaps and bounds day after day. I'm just about ready to embrace it. I need to find an out, a sanctuary. All the things I've been previously using as my out don't seem to be working. Finding a new sanctuary is imperative to my survival.

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Everyone has some degree of darkness in their hearts. Lately, I've been fighting a losing battle against the darkness in my own heart. Why is the darkness so strong. In the movies it always seems so easy to be overwhelmed by the darkness. The fight against the light pales in comparison to the struggle against the darkness. Why is that? I suppose ( Read more... )

I feel sapped of strength. I am inherently weak. I tend to choose the path of least resistance. I try to please everyone. If possible I would like to lead a life devoid of responsibility... a life where I don't have to exert myself. I don't want anyone to have to rely or depend on me. I just want to live for myself, free from anything and ( Read more... )

I had a feeling that graduating vet school would be the high of my life. And then afterwards, everything would kind of just go downhill from there. Lately I've been feeling sapped of all strength. I'm feeling like an old man, frail and decrepit just waiting to die. I feel like I have barely enough strength to get out of bed every day. I don't have ( Read more... )

Lack of money is the root of all evil.

So far I've sucessfully completed the first two stages of life, birth and school. Which pretty much leaves me with work, retirement, and death. I can't help but think that there is about 30 more years of work waiting for me. I kind of wished I could just zip through to the end. People always talk about how the journey is is more important than the ( Read more... )